TV on Kimberly Hirsh

Fri, 27 Feb 2026 07:41:30 -0400

💬📺🖖🏻 “I’ve learned that I am a lot.” S.A.M., Starfleet Academy 1x08, “The Life of the Stars”

Fri, 30 Jan 2026 04:31:34 -0400

Me, watching Starfleet Academy: Oh my gosh Holly Hunter is so tiny! So cute!

The Internet: She’s an inch taller than you, Kimberly.

🖖🏻📺

Thu, 10 Apr 2025 05:46:10 -0400

💬📺 “The thing, Hastings? Do you think Poirot concerns himself with mere thingness?” Season 1, Episode 2, “Murder in the Mews,” Agatha Christie’s Poirot

Sun, 06 Apr 2025 23:18:26 -0400

📺 Watched The Residence.

So great! A country house mystery where the country house is the White House. Uzo Aduba is wonderful, as always. Full of fun actors in smaller roles.

Wed, 12 Mar 2025 06:48:28 -0400

📺🍿 How I Met Your Mother co-creator Craig Thomas wrote about the influence the movie A Christmas Story had on the show.

I replied with this:

This has me thinking about the voice-over narration in The Wonder Years, beautifully done by Daniel Stern. A Christmas Story (which for years my dad would put on for its 24-hour marathon) came out in 1983. The Wonder Years ran 1988-1993. What other films and shows use this device? (I think maybe 8-Bit Christmas does?) Are they all doing the same thing with it? What does it do that stories without flashback voiceover don’t? I would read the heck out of a smart pop culture essay about this.

Fri, 06 Dec 2024 17:27:58 -0400

📺📚📓 Read The Great Experiment: race and authorship in Shonda Rhimes’s Queen Charlotte: A Bridgerton Story by Claudia Calhoun (Adaptation).

This is an eminently readable and beautifully argued journal article.

Wed, 02 Oct 2024 19:55:49 -0400

📺 Watched the DS9 episode, “Destiny,” and I feel like the Bajorans could really benefit from reading Oedipus Rex as an object lesson in the futility in attempting to avert prophecies.

Mon, 23 Sep 2024 20:23:11 -0400

📺 Just finished watching the latest season of Hilda. My heart is so full. 🥹

Thu, 29 Aug 2024 04:19:00 -0400

Apparently my mid-life crisis is mostly watching Derry Girls and thinking, “Yes! That’s exactly what it felt like to be a teen girl in the mid-to-late 90s” while wishing everyone understood that a combination of En Vogue and Enya is the perfect soundtrack. 📺🎵

Mon, 03 Jun 2024 16:13:49 -0400

🔖📺 Read The Donald Trump I Saw on The Apprentice.

For 20 years, I couldn’t say what I watched the former president do on the set of the show that changed everything. Now I can.

Woof. I don’t think stories like this will move the needle for Trump supporters, because I don’t really think anything will move the needle for Trump supporters.

But I kind of hope they turn some non-voters into voters.

Thu, 30 May 2024 13:33:28 -0400

Today:

woke up way too early
read about Romance Writers of America filing for bankruptcy and the absurd way they’re trying to blame it on Courtney Milan 🔖📚
had my first mammogram (later than I ought) (they used cute stickers to mark my sebaceous cysts)
caught up on Season 3 of Bridgerton 📺

Sat, 18 May 2024 11:07:03 -0400

Currently reading: The Best There is at what He Does: Examining Chris Claremont’s X-Men by Jason Powell 📚

Started watching X-Men 97 📺 which reminded me that I love the X-Men, so now I’m reading this and reading the comics mentioned alongside. Super fun.

Mon, 05 Feb 2024 11:38:12 -0400

📺🎄 Watched Christmas Flow, mostly for the Parisian locations.

Sun, 04 Feb 2024 20:39:25 -0400

📺 Watched Emily in Paris. All of it, fairly quickly.

Gorgeous views of Paris and fun to see how much of the French I understood but I don’t find Emily herself particularly winning (she’s like a caricature of what Boomers think Millennials are like).

Thu, 01 Feb 2024 11:00:04 -0400

📺 Watching Emily in Paris, mostly for the gorgeous locations and Sylvie’s fashion. Emily’s relationships with men stress me out.

Fri, 05 Jan 2024 18:58:27 -0400

🔖📺 Watched Pokemon Concierge and read Pokémon Concierge’s Psyduck Is for the Millennial Pokémon Fans.

I’m a Xennial: Pokemon was more for the kids I babysat than for me, though I did get into the card game my freshman year of college.

Psyduck has long been my Pokemon soul mate, with her constant headaches and love of water. And this article articulates why Psyduck appeals to me even more in Pokemon Concierge.

Fri, 08 Dec 2023 14:10:17 -0400

🍿📺🎄 Watched The Christmas Train.

Based on a David Baldacci novel & bringing a bit of star power with Dermot Mulroney, Joan Cusack, and Danny Glover. A journalist runs into an old flame on The Christmas Train. Cute stuff. Almost too high-quality actually, for the vibes I’m looking for.

Sun, 03 Dec 2023 03:43:39 -0400

📺🍿🎄 Watched The Naughty Nine.

This is a heist movie about kids on the naughty list breaking into Santa’s workshop. It honors all the heist tropes and is super fun. Watch with a kid if you can.

Thu, 30 Nov 2023 23:51:55 -0400

📺🍿🎄 Watched Reporting for Christmas.

I really like this one. A hard-hitting Chicago reporter heads to a small town in Iowa to cover the 40th anniversary of the local toy company’s most popular product. Life changes ensue.

Super cute, winning cast.

Wed, 29 Nov 2023 15:15:31 -0400

📺🍿🎄 Watched A Biltmore Christmas.

Mostly for Jonathan Frakes & Robert Picardo 🖖🏻 but I ended up really liking it. There’s a lot of 40s Hollywood glamor. Also, I love Biltmore. I’ve been there only twice but I still love it.

Wed, 29 Nov 2023 10:08:22 -0400

📺🍿🎄 In the movie A Timeless Christmas, I can suspend my disbelief enough to accept that a man time-traveled from 1903 to 2020, but asking me to accept that his love interest is a shoe-in for a history faculty job simply by virtue of having a PhD is a bridge too far.

Tue, 28 Nov 2023 13:47:38 -0400

🍿📺🎄 Watched A Christmas Frequency. A radio producer sets her show’s host up on on-air blind dates to save the show from the slump it’s in because the host is no fun after separating from her husband. It’s not a solid movie but I liked it because the cast is adorable.

Mon, 27 Nov 2023 11:57:29 -0400

📺🍿🎄 By the way, time travel is a whole subgenre of holiday made-for-TV movie. See:

Eve’s Christmas (yes, that IS Amber from Clueless!)
Back to Christmas (featuring Veronica Mars’s Michael Muhney and 1990s Jan Brady!)
Christmas Comes Twice (Tamera Mowry!)
A Timeless Christmas

Mon, 27 Nov 2023 03:37:16 -0400

📺🍿🎄 I was watching Hulu’s A Christmas Frequency and everything was going great but then it shattered my suspension of disbelief by having one guy give another guy an expense report, printed on paper.

Fri, 27 Oct 2023 08:41:11 -0400

I often find myself watching movies in 22-minute chunks, partly because of being a parent and partly because of having a short attention span lately. I do TV shows with act breaks, so 3 or 4 breaks as I watch where commercials would be. It’s been liberating to realize I can do this. 📺🍿

Thu, 26 Oct 2023 03:34:34 -0400

📺👱‍♀️ Buffy’s experience in the episode “I, Robot… You, Jane” is super relatable. I had two friends with online boyfriends around 1997 and I wasn’t sure about them (though I became friends with these boyfriends). Fortunately, they weren’t digitized demons. Just teen boys.

Thu, 12 Oct 2023 04:41:15 -0400

🔖📺 Read How The Haunting of Hill House conveys the horror of family.

In the world of Hill House, devotion to family is a tender kind of madness that exists just on the other side of mourning, a ghostly insistence that the love that binds us is also the thing that keeps us chained.

Mon, 25 Sep 2023 18:34:21 -0400

I’ve been watching Star Trek: Deep Space 9 for the first time since I watched it as a kid when it originally aired. I remembered liking Quark and that Dax seemed like a good cosplay option for me. But this time around, I find myself really locked in on and adoring Kira. 🖖🏻📺

Tue, 05 Sep 2023 11:32:29 -0400

📺🖖🏻 Finished my rewatch of Star Trek: The Next Generation today. It felt much less intense watching “All Good Things…” now than when it originally aired, probably because I can visit my Enterprise-D friends whenever I want.

Mon, 07 Aug 2023 06:52:20 -0400

📚📺 The trailer for The Power dropped. I loved this book so much. The show has an amazing cast. I’m looking forward to watching it.

Fri, 04 Aug 2023 06:56:14 -0400

📺👱‍♀️🖖 Glen Weldon’s rewrite of song titles from “Once More, with Feeling” to include Star Trek stuff is precisely calculated to delight me, specifically.

The musical episode of STAR TREK: STRANGE NEW WORLDS is still yet another reason to love the show.

Formally, it’s ONCE MORE, WITH PHASERS, but at least they acknowledge the debt the episode owes to B:TVS when a character says “I’ve got a theory….”

Great opening number.
— Glen Weldon (@ghweldon) August 3, 2023

Going Through the Photons

Walk Through The Fire Phasers

Something to T’Pring About

What You Neel(ix) https://t.co/ntlQtaIa7R
— Glen Weldon (@ghweldon) August 3, 2023

Sun, 04 Jun 2023 00:09:56 -0400

📺 Watched The Baby-sitters Club S02E07, Claudia and the Sad Goodbye. 💔😭

If you know, you know.

Sat, 03 Jun 2023 13:33:02 -0400

Does anybody else know why all I feel like doing is lying in bed and watching Netflix Originals? 📺

Fri, 02 Jun 2023 22:56:20 -0400

📺 The Babysitters Club S02E03, “Stacey’s Emergency,” brilliantly depicts what it’s like living with chronic illness.

Fri, 02 Jun 2023 13:28:13 -0400

I’m only now catching up on the second season of The Babysitters Club and having Mary Ann as a triple virgo is brilliant. 📺

Sat, 27 May 2023 15:53:57 -0400

📺 Me, watching Bridgerton: How can anyone tell these Bridgerton brothers apart? They all have the same coloration. I guess two of them are a little taller? But I’m not sure.

Sat, 27 May 2023 08:47:27 -0400

📺 Watched Velma. The two primary criticisms - that it relies too heavily on meta-humor and that the characters are selfish & don’t grow - are spot on, and yet I still found it compelling enough to watch all 10 episodes.

Sun, 21 May 2023 03:58:36 -0400

📺 Star Wars: Young Jedi Adventures is exactly the Star Wars show I would have written as a kid:

Kai Brightstar
Nash Durango
The Crimson Firehawk

Brilliant targeting for its audience.

Mon, 08 May 2023 22:45:35 -0400

Starting Season 7 in my rewatch of Star Trek: The Next Generation, finding myself very glad there’s so much other Trek media including TNG tie-ins so I basically never have to say goodbye to my Enterprise D friends. 🖖🏻📺

Response to Charlie Jane Anders's "What the Universal Translator Tells Us About Exploring Other Cultures"

Tue, 18 Apr 2023 04:11:55 -0400

🔖📝📚📺🍿 Read What the Universal Translator Tells Us About Exploring Other Cultures by Charlie Jane Anders (Happy Dancing newsletter).

Anders talks about the way a universal translator gives us shortcuts to understanding other cultures that don’t really show how hard it is to actually understand another culture.

She offers a lot of examples of this and asks,

How is it that Han Solo understands Chewbacca, but doesn’t speak Wookiee himself? And vice versa?

It’s been a long time since I was getting my Master of Arts in teaching and had to take a course on how Language Acquisition happens (almost 20 years), but I recall that we tend to understand much more of a language than we can speak, and I’ve certainly found that to be true recently.

For W’s Fulbright, we spent two months in the Netherlands, and had learned some very basic Dutch using Duolingo before heading over there. I often didn’t understand what people were saying, but I always understood more of what they were saying than I could ever speak myself.

Our first week there, some young people overheard my son saying his favorite Dutch word, “kat,” on the bus. They asked us about our being Americans and then one of them wanted to know if we were full of “kattenkwaad.” We didn’t know this word, and the person who asked didn’t know English well enough to explain it, but his friend tried.

I asked if it meant behaving like a cat, and he indicated not exactly. He tried to explain by example: pushing the stop button on the bus, then not getting off when the bus stopped.

“Oh, like, pranks!” I said.

“Yes, like pranks.”

“Mischievous,” my sister suggested. He wasn’t sure about that one.

Weeks later, I found this book in the shop a short walk from our house:

Google translates this title as “First Aid for Mischief: The Survival Guide for Cat Parents.”

I don’t think it captures the sense entirely, based on our bus conversation, but it’s hard to be sure.

Fri, 07 Apr 2023 21:33:26 -0400

🖖🏻📺

Data: *has a personal problem* *does extensive research* Captain Picard, I have done all the research but I do not have the answer to my problem.

Picard: What do you think about the problem, though?

Data: *blinks*

Just another reason I identify with Data.

Thu, 06 Apr 2023 20:12:45 -0400

Full-on happy misty-eyed over this week’s Picard. 🖖🏻📺

Wed, 29 Mar 2023 10:06:34 -0400

📺 Want to watch:

SMILF
Catastrophe
Motherland
The Letdown
Workin’ Moms

Thu, 23 Mar 2023 15:15:35 -0400

📺💬🖖🏻 “I can’t say being equal parts irritating and endearing isn’t slightly familiar.” Picard 3x06, The Bounty. IT ME.

Sun, 12 Mar 2023 10:54:34 -0400

📺 Shrinking is doing a great job dressing a teen in 90s throwback clothes and if y’all see me walking around in overalls with one side undone now you know why. THIS IS OUR MOMENT, XENNIALS, find a grown-up way to wear the clothes you loved as a teen!

Wed, 08 Feb 2023 00:36:42 -0400

📺 Watched Key & Peele - I Said….

This is a beautiful sketch that heightens literally as high as you can go. Strong one to have early in the show.

Mon, 30 Jan 2023 15:10:33 -0400

🔖📺🎮 Read Television Is Better Without Video Games and Video Games Are Better Without Gameplay (Ian Bogost, The Atlantic).

Maybe Ian Bogost should stop playing video games.

Sat, 28 Jan 2023 22:47:34 -0400

📺🖖🏻 When I watch TNG or Picard, Data is Data, but anyone else Brent Spiner plays is Brent Spiner doing an awesome job. But Data is, viscerally for me, Not A Character Brent Spiner Plays, but instead A Guy (an android guy but still).

Fri, 27 Jan 2023 13:41:08 -0400

📺 Watched Ares.

Brilliant dark academia horror with all the hallmarks: secret society, dangerously powerful young people, gorgeous fashion, a lower class newcomer, with the spirit of LEGENDBORN or ACE OF SPADES critiquing the aesthetic’s Eurocentrism.

Wed, 18 Jan 2023 17:29:06 -0400

🔖📺👱‍♀️ Read Sarah Michelle Gellar Returns to Fighting Form: “I’ve Earned the Right to Stand Where I Am”.

“Was it an ideal working situation? Absolutely not. But it’s OK to love Buffy for what we created because I think it’s pretty spectacular.”

Sat, 14 Jan 2023 06:13:30 -0400

📺 Finished watching Wednesday. Glad I stuck with it. I appreciate Wednesday refusing to be in the same teen drama show as everyone else. I was delighted by the ending. Be warned: replies may contain spoilers.

Fri, 13 Jan 2023 23:44:09 -0400

📺💬

Tyler: Come on, don’t you like a day that’s all about you?
Wednesday: Every day is all about me. This one just comes with cake and a bad song.

🖤🌧️🖤

Fri, 13 Jan 2023 07:57:52 -0400

📺💬 “It’s not my fault I can’t interpret your emotional morse code.” 🖤 Wednesday 🖤

Tue, 10 Jan 2023 11:05:27 -0400

📺 Watching WEDNESDAY and every time Christina Ricci says, “Wednesday,” I’m all, “Are you talking to yourself?” in spite of the killer job Jenna Ortega is doing.

Fri, 16 Dec 2022 09:49:17 -0400

Revised 5 TV shows to introduce me, now in chronological order of release! 📺

Star Trek: The Next Generation 🖖🏻
Animaniacs🐁
Buffy the Vampire Slayer 👱‍♀️
Crazy Ex-Girlfriend 🥨
GLOW 🤼‍♀️

'Wednesday' is full of "Whoa." 📺

Thu, 15 Dec 2022 10:37:46 -0400

I just finished the first episode of Wednesday. I have so many thoughts and feelings.

First, I’ve seen criticism that the Addams Family works best when you have the whole family. (Sadly, I can’t find the link to where I read this right now.) I completely agree but the decision to rely on the trope of a teen rebelling against their parents means any family time here is very tense. So I don’t want the whole family together because they’re not as loving as I’m used to.

As Emmet Asher-Perrin points out, the Addams Family movies are all about family as a safe haven, on the unconditional not just love, but positive regard they have for their children. That vibe isn’t present here.

(I’ll mention at this point that I haven’t seen the recent animated Addams Family movies, and that I shunned the musical because a huge part of the premise was Wednesday wanting to be normal for a boy and that’s just… not very Wednesday.)

But.

Jenna Ortega is brilliant. She perfectly revives My Generation’s Wednesday (what’s my generation? Xennials I guess?). Her delivery is beautiful. Her physicality is on point (🤺).

I really appreciate the Christina Ricci cameo. She’s adorable.

I love how this feels like a goth Veronica Mars. I’ve seen comparisons to Riverdale, but at least in the first season, Jughead’s narration is reportage, not reflection. He is wryly commenting on the corruption in his town. In contrast, Veronica and Wednesday give us interiority that isn’t self-indulgent.

It has me thinking about what bell hooks has to say about confessional writing, how perception of it is gendered. I’ve been reading remembered rapture lately.

I can’t deal with the family tension and all of the school bits are sort of… just being the cliche rather than commenting on it?

We’ve seen this roommate dynamic in Wicked (I may have started singing “Loathing” to myself when Wednesday and Enid met). There doesn’t seem to be a new take on it here.

Also: the embrace of the supernatural beyond the Addams’s immediate circle feels a little off to me here. In Charles Addams’s comics and in the 90s movies, the world was pretty normal. To suddenly have a school full of vampires, werewolves, gorgons, and sirens feels not exactly random, but out of place.

On this note: Thing. Thing has scars, Frankenstein’s creature style, and I don’t love it. I think because a disembodied hand is enough weird. It requires no additional weird.

The costumes are wonderful. The exterior view of the school makes me super happy.

I’ll give it a few more episodes but giving the Addams Family the Riverdale treatment with a Harry Potter setting, Doyle/Cordelia-on-Angel visions, and a more-Veronica Mars-than-Jughead voiceover feels mostly like trying to do too many things at one time.

(Also, I’ve seen comparisons to Nancy Drew, Buffy, and Sabrina the Teenage Witch but none to VMars, which feels super weird to me.)

Thu, 15 Dec 2022 06:55:46 -0400

Introduce yourself with 5 TV shows 📺:

Buffy the Vampire Slayer 👱‍♀️
Firefly 🌌
Star Trek: The Next Generation 🖖
GLOW 🤼‍♀️
The X-Files 🛸

Thu, 15 Dec 2022 01:55:15 -0400

🔖📺 Read Wednesday Forgets Why We Fell in Love With the Addams Family.

“The Addams Family films were about family being a haven of pure acceptance and unquestioning love.”

This is a perfect articulation of something I’ve known in my heart since 1991.

Sat, 10 Dec 2022 03:32:00 -0400

🔖📺📝 Read TV Recaps Taught Me How to Write Criticism by Joelle Kidd.

I love Kidd’s discussion of the role of pleasure in criticism.

Sat, 10 Dec 2022 03:23:00 -0400

🔖📺 Read Wednesday Addams Is the Ultimate Outcast by Miyako Pleines (Catapult).

🖤

Mon, 14 Nov 2022 07:51:47 -0400

📺💬 On MythicQuest…

Ian: Poppy, lines are so Web1. You don’t wanna be in Web1, do you?

Me: I do! I love Web1!

Mon, 07 Nov 2022 13:09:07 -0400

🔖📺 Read ‘Bad Sisters’ Captures the Intensity of Having and Being a Sister

Ooh. When I’m ready for intense TV I might try this.

“Sisterhood was a world unto itself… together, we made bewildering terrain familiar.”

Mon, 12 Sep 2022 17:59:49 -0400

📺 Will I need to watch The Book of Boba Fett to follow what’s happening in the next season of The Mandalorian?

Sun, 11 Sep 2022 17:09:56 -0400

📺 Excuse me, I am watching The Rings of Power and Disa is my new fave, thought you should know. (And that’s a big deal because Galadriel, Nori, and Bronwyn are all great, too.)

Sun, 11 Sep 2022 14:31:24 -0400

📺 Watched The Sandman. It’s so great. I don’t think a better adaptation would be possible. I missed the black speech bubbles but I know those couldn’t really be done in this medium.

Tue, 06 Sep 2022 12:06:50 -0400

John Cameron Mitchell doing Ethel Merman singing “Everything’s Coming Up Roses” is all I have ever wanted. A mid-90s musical theatre nerd’s dream come true. Thank you, The Sandman. 📺

Tue, 06 Sep 2022 02:34:33 -0400

Just spent a minute staring at all the app icons on my phone trying to figure out why the Star Trek app wasn’t in alphabetical order in the S section, but of course, the name of the Star Trek app is Paramount+. 📺🖖🏻

Tue, 06 Sep 2022 02:06:06 -0400

Kirby Howell-Baptiste is brilliant in The Sandman. I need all the Death spin-offs: High Cost of Living, At Death’s Door, all of it. She’s got brilliant big sister energy. 🖤 📺

Tue, 02 Aug 2022 17:11:39 -0400

🔖 📺 Celia Rose Gooding, who does an amazing job playing Cadet Nyota Uhura on Strange New Worlds, wrote a beautiful guest column for The Hollywood Reporter on Nichelle Nichols’s legacy. 🖖

Thu, 07 Jul 2022 18:10:31 -0400

Finished Strange New Worlds Season 1. A+. Somebody give Ethan Peck’s eyebrow an Emmy. 🖖🏻📺

Thu, 07 Jul 2022 02:43:46 -0400

“There’s surviving, and then there’s living.” - Star Trek: Strange New Worlds 🖖🏻📺💬

Mon, 04 Jul 2022 14:49:37 -0400

Finished Stranger Things 4 and I love it so much and also will somebody just play D&D with Will already, yeesh. 📺

Thinking through disability on Star Trek 🖖🏻📺

Wed, 22 Jun 2022 01:02:57 -0400

I wrote this a week ago to sort through my thoughts on disability on Star Trek. It is essentially a freewrite, not a carefully structured essay.

Some context: I write this as my mom has recently changed from being a person with variable and invisible disabilities to someone with consistent and visible disabilities. She has lost the use of her legs and must ride a wheelchair if she wants to move around independently. But for years, she has had problems with sometimes falling down, for decades she has had chronic illness with debilitating fatigue as a symptom. Disability is not new to her but her recently developed disability is quite different from her disability in the past.

I myself have lived with chronic illness as my primary disability for a long time, though I did not conceive of myself as disabled until the COVID-19 pandemic. My disabilities are variable and invisible, like my mom’s earlier ones. I sometimes have debilitating fatigue or brain fog. I struggle with activities of daily living due to challenges of executive function, rather than physical limitation.

And on top of all of this is my experience as an autism sibling - while this hasn’t impacted me much because Micah’s diagnosis came when I was away at college, I’m still keenly aware of it. I also am perpetually working on foregrounding the voices of autistic people themselves rather than trumpeting my thoughts on it. But it is work, not something that comes to me naturally. I’m too keen on talking about my own thoughts and ideas for that to be my default state.

With all of this in mind, I’m thinking lately about two depictions of disability on Star Trek: Christopher Pike’s experience as a quadriplegic who can communicate only using assistive technology and, for whatever reason, that assistive technology is limited. (Maybe in the 60s it was the best they could imagine? Maybe his cognitive damage is so strong that he can only formulate yes or no as thoughts?) And Geordi Laforge, whose disability is mitigated by assistive technology that not only gives him sight, but allows him to use his sight in ways that people who are born sighted cannot do.

And then there are others as well who I would love more details about. On Discovery in particular, Airiam and Detmer. What about on Lower Decks? Is the character with an implant there using it as assistive technology? Or is it an augmentation? I should look at these characters more closely and look for others as well.

What about Sarek as he nears the end of his life?

There are plenty of possible examples for me to look at.

Today, though, I’ll focus on Pike and Laforge.

Pike’s plight is presented as a kind of death or “the death of the man I am now,” as Pike tells Spock in SNW 1x01. In TOS (I’ll admit I have yet to watch this episode and have only read about it on Wikipedia), Spock kidnaps Pike and takes him to Talos IV where he can live with the illusion of his body as it was before his disabling event. What does this mean about disability in Star Trek? How does the illusion on Talos IV work? Is he actually lying in a bed somewhere? Rolling around in his chair? He gets to live out his days with Veena and that’s nice but what is the nature of this “solution”? And what does it tell us about disability in the world of Star Trek? I need to watch “The Cage” before I can know at all. And also perhaps to revisit Pike’s experience of the future on Discovery and take notes on his mentions of it in SNW.

(Also who else is writing about Star Trek and disability?)

Now Laforge. This is someone whose assistive technology effectively eliminates his disability but who 1. is once again disabled if his VISOR falls off and 2. if I’m remembering correctly, is always in pain and that’s the tradeoff for using the visor.

(I feel like there is somebody else on Trek who’s always in pain but I wonder if I’m actually thinking of Miriam from Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night.)

Geordi Laforge’s disability isn’t a thing until it is. I’ve been falling asleep to the TNG episode, “The Masterpiece Society,” in which a colony has systematically bred its citizens for optimum living, including eliminating disability. Laforge reads this (and I do too) as a suggestion that as a disabled person, he has no contribution to make to a society. And then there’s delicious irony that the technology from his VISOR is just the technology they need to save the colony from being essentially doomed by tectonic activity responsive to a star core fragment. (Still not sure what that is, though I can guess from the words. Maybe I’ll look it up.)

I talked to W about this last night, and he suggested that it’s not that Geordi wouldn’t have been born, but that he would have been born sighted. I think this is a set of hypotheticals that it’s hard to think through. To what extent do our disabilities make us who we are? Are we the same person if we’re born without them? This is something that we’ve thought about a lot in our family with my brother and whether being able to isolate an autism gene would change his life. We wouldn’t have wanted to terminate Mommy’s pregnancy with him but it might have allowed us to prepare better. But if it were possible to manipulate the autism out of him, would he then be himself? I know he doesn’t think so.

Neurodivergence is a different sort of disability, I think, than physical limitation. (I’m keenly aware of this deficit-based language and know that I need to change it before I write anything for wider publication on it.) We want autism acceptance, neurodivergent acceptance.

But there is a real tension between the social model of disability and the medical model of disability. Is the world what disables you, or your body? I think it’s both. Star Trek sort of shows us with Geordi that it can be both. The Enterprise is a pretty accessible place, as long as the turbolifts are working, and Geordi has technology he needs to live and work. By the social model of disability, as long as he’s wearing his VISOR, he’s not disabled.

But he is sometimes in circumstances where he’s not wearing the VISOR, especially in environments that are NOT DESIGNED. And that limits his potential activity, and so in those cases, it is his body that disables him.

I need to be careful not to feel like I have to do a complete literature review on critical disability studies before writing about this any further.

Mon, 13 Jun 2022 21:22:47 -0400

The TNG episode, “The Masterpiece Society,” is great. 🖖🏻📺💬

“It was the wish of our founders that no one have to suffer a life of disabilities.” “Who gave them the right to decide whether or not I might have something to contribute?” - Hannah Bates and La Forge, on eugenics

On sweetweird and hopepunk 🎙️ 📚📺🍿

Tue, 07 Jun 2022 12:13:00 -0400

Transcript:

Hello friends. I wanted to write a blog post about sweetweird and its relationship to hopepunk and other narrative aesthetics, we’ll call them, because they’re not exactly genres. But I am having some peripheral neuropathy today. And so I’m giving my wrists a break, and I’m gonna just record a podcast and then I’m going to upload the transcript with it so it’ll be effectively a blog post.

So sweetweird. Sweetweird, in case you are not constantly on the science fiction and fantasy internet as some of us are, is a term coined by Charlie Jane Anders. She first coined it in her book. I think it’s called Never Say You Can’t Survive and it’s like half-memoir, half-writing craft book, and she proposed it as an alternative to grimdark. So in case you’re not familiar with grimdark, it is fantasy or science fiction that’s set in a really hopeless, gritty world, and the most commonly thrown around examples are the are the Game of Thrones TV series/the Song of Ice and Fire books, or what I think is an even better example, The Blade Itself. So there’s really no one redeemable in those stories.They are fantasy stories without real heroes. When there are people who seem to be heroic like Jon Snow, things go badly for them. The general sense is that the world is terrible, and it’s just gonna stay terrible, but let’s read about some interesting happenings. Grimdark was fine.

Until 2016, when a lot of people started to feel that things went very badly, myself included. And so from 2016 to 2019, there was a bit of a shift that author Alexandra Rowland noticed and they called this shift hopepunk. Hopepunk is stories, especially fantasy and science fiction, but a lot of people have offered other examples, where the world is terrible, and it’s not going to ever be fixed 100% but it is worth fighting to do what we can to improve it anyway.

So in addition to being opposed to grimdark, this is also opposed to the idea of noblebright, which is where you get things like Lord of the Rings, where you have some foreordained hero who is guaranteed to save us all and they have a birthright. My easiest go-to example of noblebright is Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Some people would say it’s something else. But Buffy has a destiny. There is an evil. She’s the one girl in all the world chosen to fight it and she consistently defeats it. New evil springs up, but it’s not the sort of ongoing, miserable world that she’s in. It’s that sometimes new evil pops up and that’s just when we happen to be watching her show because it’s probably not as fascinating to some people to watch she and her friends hang out. I would watch that, but not everyone would. And so Buffy is a great example of noblebright.

Angel, which is technically a spin off of Buffy, is a great example of hopepunk and it’s one of the examples Alexandra Rowland gave and it’s one of my favorite examples not just because I love it very much, but also because it sort of is quintessentially about this. In season two of Angel there’s an episode called “Epiphany.” And there’s a great quote from it, written by Tim Minear who is one of my favorite writers and himself, I would argue, a pretty hopepunk kind of guy, based on what we know about him from his writing, which is all we can know really. He also wrote the show Terriers, which I would argue is also hopepunk. So check that out. But the quote is,

“I guess if there’s no great glorious end to all this, if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do.”

That is as mission statementy for Angel as you can get. And it is the most hopepunk arrangement of words I think you can have and you see it going on through season two of Angel all the way up to the very last moments of season five when it’s very clear that these heroes are fighting a war that they cannot win. And they do it anyway. And there’s a great moment and a great quote there that I don’t want to spoil in case you’re a person who hasn’t watched Angel, but the world around them is horrid. It’s never going to get 100% better. The forces they face are not readily defeated. They keep coming back. They’re not like Buffy where new evil comes. It’s the same old thing coming back over and over again. And so that’s hopepunk, in a nutshell basically, I think is Angel.

So sweetweird. Charlie Jane Anders offers as a different response to grimdark and alternative to noblebright and a lot of people myself included at first were like, “Wait, don’t we already have hopepunk for this?” but then as I learned more about it, I saw that they are related, sweetweird and hopepunk. I call them cousins, but they’re not identical. And the quick way I like to say this is that hopepunk is global. And sweetweird is local. So in hopepun,k you live in a hellscape and every day you muster your energy and you go out and you fight the bad of the world. And you just keep doing it because it’s worth doing. And I think from 2016 to 2019, that was a storytelling mode that we really needed. Because it felt like all right, we can do this. We’re going to have to fight it every step of the way. And it will keep coming back. But we can do that we can improve the world at least a little bit by doing that. And even into 2020 hopepunk was really something that seemed good.

But now it’s 2022 and I would say I don’t know about y’all, but I do know about y’all. We’re all exhausted. We live in the hellscape and it’s hard and it doesn’t always feel like we can make a difference. It feels like the places where we can make a difference are small. Sweetweird is an alternate way of approaching the hellscape. So the little phrase that I’m very pleased with myself for coming up with in the comments on Gwenda Bond’s newsletter about sweetweird, is that sweetweird is about the idea that even within a hellscape you can create a haven.

I think the best example of this is The Owl House and I’m gonna go to that in a minute. But just a quick shout out to The Book of Mormon which posited this in its big finale way back in 2011 with the idea that we can make this our paradise planet. And you know, that does sound bigger than sweetweird, but the idea I think is still there. So The Owl House is not the only example Charlie Jane Anders offers. She suggests many trends, especially in animation. I haven’t seen all of them. I am a little familiar with Steven Universe and Adventure Time and I’ve watched all of the Netflix She-Ra and I think those are sort of stepping stones on the path but that The Owl House, which I also have not seen all of but have seen enough of to have a sense of its vibe, is sort of the perfected sweetweird.

So in The Owl House, Luz, a middle-school-aged, I believe, girl longs to live in a fantasy world and just so happens to find herself in one instead of ending up at summer camp like her mom had planned for her. And immediately she’s very excited because she’s met a real witch and there’s this great moment in the pilot where they leave the witch’s house and Luz sees this fantasy world she’s ended up in for the first time and the place is called the Boiling Isles. And it is miserable. It is a literal visual hellscape. It looks like a terrible place to be. There are a lot of bad things happening there all the time. It’s a harsh and unfriendly world. But Luz and Eda the Owl Lady, the witch that she works with, and King the tiny, adorable — it’s not actually cat but a lot of ways feels like a cat to me — creature bent on world dominatio,n and then Luz’s school friends, and then over time Luz’s frenemy/love interest Amity, all build this sort of cocoon of love together. I would say that sounds more lurid than I meant it, but they create this group of people who all love and care for each other in the middle of the hellscape and they’re not trying to turn the Boiling Isles into not-a-hellscape. The Boiling Isles are a hellscape. It’s where they’re at. And so they are creating their own place here.

And so for me, the thing that makes the most sense with sweetweird in our current moment is that sweetweird is the story we need when we’re too exhausted for hopepunk. When we need time to recover and to remember that we are people who can do things. But we’re not ready to go out and be the people doing those things in the face of the horrible world we live in. Then we can retreat to these spaces of love that we have built for ourselves. And so that’s sort of the purpose in my mind of sweetweird and the distinction between sweetweird and hopepunk as a visual aesthetic.

A lot of the examples of sweetweird are a very specific vibe that is not one that resonates with me though I’m very happy so many people have found them resonant — specifically, Adventure Time and Steven Universe and The Owl House. But I have lately been into woodland goth which is a whole other blog post but I think can be related. Except there’s you know ominous fairies and stuff. But but still this idea at least in the book I just read, War for the Oaks, which is basically one of the first books to ever be an urban fantasy, even in the face of a giant fairy war, the main character Eddi builds a little band of people who all play together, and their music is related to fairy and to magic, but it also is its own thing and the connections they build with one another stand independent of that big fairy war. So it’s a similar idea, though the book itself is not sweetweird.

All right. That was a lot more than I realized I had to say and I’m super glad I said it out loud instead of typing it. I will post the raw transcript with this with maybe a few corrections because it seems Otter.ai does really not understand hopepunk as a word but yeah, that’s that. I hope you have enjoyed listening to and/or reading this and I hope if sweetweird sounds like the story aesthetic for you that you go out and enjoy a lot of it. Bye

This transcript was generated by otter.ai

How to Make a Star Wars Reference

Mon, 06 Jun 2022 10:00:32 -0400

Hello, friends. I want to talk about something from Stranger Things 4 that is brilliantly done. And that’s a Star Wars reference.

There are a lot of iconic quotes from Star Wars (and I mean the whole shebang, not just A New Hope). “Use the force, Luke.” “Luke, I am your father.” “I love you.” “I know.” “Do or do not. There is no try.”

People use these to varying effect, with varying degrees of acknowledgement. Sometimes it’s hackneyed, though I can’t think of any examples right now.

Sometimes it’s brilliantly used to reveal character, like in 30 Rock:

Liz says, “I love you,” Criss says, “I know,” Liz says, “You Solo’d me,” and then you’re certain that this is a love that will last.

But in this case, not only is this a Star Wars reference, it is a Star Wars reference that is then diegetically marked as a Star Wars reference.

Star Wars is 45 years old. It’s hard to make a Star Wars reference feel fresh. But Stranger Things 4 does, and here’s how (spoilers!):

This beautifully mimics this scene from The Empire Strikes Back:

The 20-to-1 odds of rolling a 20 on a 20-sided die make it line up extra beautifully with Han Solo’s odds of 3,720-to-1.

“Never tell me the odds” is something that most Star Wars fans will recognize as a reference, but in Star Wars it isn’t said with the gravity of so many of those other commonly known phrases. It’s something that people who like Star Wars okay, or are dimly aware of it, aren’t super likely to recognize. And it’s something that doesn’t take you out of the flow of the scene in Stranger Things. We’re not stopping the action to make a Star Wars reference: we’re making a Star Wars reference in much the way actual D&D players do, in the context of the actions surrounding the game.

I think this is probably now my favorite use of a Star Wars reference. Sorry, 30 Rock.

Fri, 03 Jun 2022 00:54:43 -0400

If you enjoyed the Chapel/Ortegas dynamic in this week’s SNW, there are [21 works tagged with their relationship] (https://archiveofourown.org/tags/Christine%20Chapel%2As%2AErica%20Ortegas/works) at AO3, mostly from a prolific author with the delightful username Lesbi_enterprise. 🖖🏻📺

Fri, 03 Jun 2022 00:21:30 -0400

“It appears that hijinks are the most logical course of action.” Star Trek: Strange New Worlds, 1x05, “Spock Amok” 🖖🏻📺💬

Mon, 30 May 2022 15:31:56 -0400

In Star Trek: TNG, S5E11, “Hero Worship,” a kid asks Data what he thinks of a model the kid built. When Data expresses his aesthetic assessment the kid says, “You hate it!” Data tells him, “You are making an unwarranted extrapolation.” I’m telling my anxiety that from now on. 🖖📺

Fri, 27 May 2022 09:13:24 -0400

How do none of the early results in a Google Images search for Star Trek Bingo have something like “mysterious pathogen takes down whole crew” on them? It happened twice in season 1 of TNG & we got it in episode 2 of SNW. (It’s one of my favorite Trek tropes.) 🖖🏻📺

Thu, 26 May 2022 22:47:00 -0400

“As we honor the lives that have been given, let us also be grateful to be still on the journey.” “The enemy doesn’t care about my feelings, Captain, so I don’t waste my time having any.”

Star Trek: Strange New Worlds, “Memento Mori” 🖖🏻💬

Tue, 24 May 2022 11:39:35 -0400

I have extreme MCU fatigue so I’m only going to watch the stuff clearly and closely inspired by comics I’ve actually read and enjoyed. 🍿📺🗯️

Sun, 22 May 2022 14:04:33 -0400

I love a good slice-of-life story but the constant interruptions to Worf’s work once his son Alexander boards the Enterprise in the episode “New Ground” are far too real.🖖🏻📺

🔖🖖📺 In reply to Star Trek: Discovery Has Problems (& How They Can Be Fixed)(Trek News) by Bill Smith

Wed, 18 May 2022 11:54:54 -0400

In reply to Star Trek: Discovery Has Problems (& How They Can Be Fixed) (Trek News) by Bill Smith:

I agree with Smith’s assessment of Discovery. Each season, the stakes are bigger. In Season 4, they were literally extragalactic. Once you’ve broken the galactic barrier and made first contact with a species living beyond it, where else is there to go?

The race to solve the puzzle box is exhausting. The hyperfocus on serialization leads to a lot of intriguing threads being introduced and tied off more quickly than I would like. For example, in Seasons 3 and 4 we saw what looked like they were going to be mental health crises for Detmer (PTSD from the jump into the future), Tilly (depression related to existential crisis), and Culber (burnout). In Detmer’s case, I don’t recall being shown the road to recovery at all. Tilly seemed to have two episodes of feeling bad that were magically fixed by deciding to become an instructor. And Culber I guess just really needed a vacation?

I really enjoy Discovery. In fact, I enjoy it so much that I wish there were more of it so we would have time to devote a whole episode to each of these characters.

I love Michael Burnham. But I also love so much of the rest of her crew. TNG started with a focus on the bridge crew and especially Picard, but opened up to give us time to get to know O’Brien, Barclay, and more. I wish Discovery had the breathing room to do the same.

I especially agree with Smith’s point here:

One of the things that Star Trek: Discovery did exceedingly well in Season 4 was First Contact with Species 10-C, the originators of the Dark Matter Anomaly.

It was its own challenge in unlocking the mystery of the DMA and I thought that aspect was something that the show did really well. It took this concept of seeking out new life and new civilizations and put a 32nd-century spin on it.

Discovery really leaned into that first contact situation hard and it worked. For 56 years, Star Trek has taught us that the unknown isn’t always something to be feared, but we should always strive to understand. There isn’t always a “big bad villain” when the puzzle is assembled or, sometimes, we find out that we are the villain however unintentionally.

These are the types of stories that have always found their way into Star Trek—from Gene Roddenberry’s first script right up to today’s iterations of the franchise. These are Trek’s roots and when Discovery revisits them, it works brilliantly.

Watching everyone work together to make first contact with the 10-C was exhilarating. It had all the delight of Picard figuring out the speech patterns in “Darmok” with an added bonus of getting to see a bunch of different people work together, leveraging each of their specialties to shine. This is foundational Trek stuff and I love when Discovery puts a spin on it.

I hope the writers will go a little softer in Discovery Season 5, giving it room to breathe. I look forward to seeing what they do.

Sat, 14 May 2022 02:03:24 -0400

I love Discovery and I’ve enjoyed Picard and Prodigy, but Strange New Worlds feels like nostalgic Trek in a way that of the new shows, only Lower Decks does. I’m happy to have such an embarrassment of Star Trek riches. 🖖🏻📺

Sun, 08 May 2022 23:59:36 -0400

Screw General Order 1? SCREW GENERAL ORDER 1?! 😍 #StarTrek #StarTrekStrangeNewWorlds #StarTrekSNW 🖖🏻📺

Sat, 07 May 2022 22:53:00 -0400

Now I’m only halfway through the Strange New Worlds pilot but the Kilean makeup looks to me nearly identical to vampires on BtVS. 🖖🏻📺

Thu, 05 May 2022 10:44:51 -0400

Traumatic previously aside, the Picard finale made me very happy. 🖖🏻📺

Sun, 01 May 2022 14:30:00 -0400

Dr. Crusher’s plans for a community theater production of Pirates of Penzance in TNG episode 5x05 delight me. 🖖🏻

Thu, 28 Apr 2022 17:29:00 -0400

I’m having a really hard time processing this week’s episode of Picard, for personal reasons. One thing I will say, though, is they could use this to reasonably retcon Picard’s choice not to partner or father as rooted in fears about hurting his own children. 🖖🏻📺

Tue, 19 Apr 2022 16:11:57 -0400

In other news, Season 5 of TNG is stacked with memorable episodes. Darmok. Silicon Avatar. The Game. Ethics. The Innermost Light. Time’s Arrow. 🖖🏻📺

Thu, 14 Apr 2022 21:18:00 -0400

🖖🏻📺 This /Film review of #StarTrekPicard 2x07 verbalizes something that’s bothered me all season:

“Picard” has invented trauma for the character, just so there would be a reason for him to overcome it.

Thu, 14 Apr 2022 18:00:00 -0400

📺 Blippi is like if someone fed Mr. Rogers several thousand Pixy Stix.

Thu, 14 Apr 2022 13:59:00 -0400

🖖🏻📺 I’m not trying to spoil anybody for #StarTrekPicard but I would squee if we saw Mulder & Scully in the next episode. It won’t happen, but let me live in my headcanon.

Tue, 12 Apr 2022 21:31:37 -0400

Brent Spiner is killing it on Picard. 🖖🏻📺

Sun, 27 Mar 2022 09:03:03 -0400

I appreciate the implication from Star Trek: Picard that our timeline is the horrible timeline Q created. 🖖🏻📺

Tue, 22 Mar 2022 19:29:59 -0400

🔖📺 Read The Comedies That Understand What Peak Scammer TV Does Not.

Fri, 04 Mar 2022 05:34:27 -0400

💬📺🖖🏻 “Exhilaration enhances the absorption of knowledge.” Picard, 2x01, “The Stargazer” [Cool how this sums up my whole deal.]

Fri, 04 Mar 2022 05:15:41 -0400

💬📺🖖🏻 “The part of me that really wants is the part that has to wait in line.” Picard, 2x01, “The Stargazer”

Mon, 28 Feb 2022 07:54:11 -0400

🔖 Read Network sitcoms are actually good again. 📺

Thu, 03 Feb 2022 08:28:00 -0400

🔖 Read Women of a Certain Age.

Great piece about how the Golden Age of TV creates space for roles beyond somebody’s mom, somebody’s wife, and harpyish crone. 📺🍿

Fri, 28 Jan 2022 10:26:00 -0400

Reading misuthewitch’s thesis for my Artist Date today.

[Image Description: A tablet in a purple case displays a paper titled, “Make-Up!: The Mythic Narrative and Transformation as a Mechanism for Personal and Spiritual Growth in Magical Girl (Maho Shojo) Anime.”] 📺

Wed, 12 Jan 2022 14:44:00 -0400

W: Do you know the first documented time “Google” was used as a verb?

Me: Yes, it was on Buffy the Vampire Slayer 👩🏼, Willow said it, it was in Season 7, it was in reference to the character Cassie who claimed to speak on Tara’s behalf. But I don’t remember which episode.

Mon, 03 Jan 2022 05:39:00 -0400

10 TV Shows to Know Me 📺

The Muppet Show
Punky Brewster
Star Trek: The Next Generation
The Kids In the Hall
Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Firefly
30 Rock
How I Met Your Mother
You’re the Worst
GLOW

Thu, 30 Dec 2021 09:09:00 -0400

I just finished the midseason finale of #StarTrekDiscovery and I thought it was beautifully done. Space family talking through problems is my fave. This is SOCIAL science fiction. ❤️ Replies may contain spoilers. 📺🖖🏻

Thu, 30 Dec 2021 00:18:00 -0400

Me, watching STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION and seeing a newborn in a glass bassinet in sickbay with the birthing parent nowhere in sight: “What, in the 24th century there’s no rooming in?” (Rooming in wasn’t common in 1990 but it was a thing by 1994.) 📺🖖🏻

Tue, 28 Dec 2021 08:43:00 -0400

I just watched the SHORT TREKS episode “Q & A” and it has me really excited for STRANGE NEW WORLDS. 📺💻🖖🏻

Thu, 09 Dec 2021 15:22:01 -0400

How much do we know about the instructors at Starfleet Academy and their pedagogy? 🖖🏻📺

Mon, 29 Nov 2021 17:08:00 -0400

Every time we’re watching Power Rangers and Kimberly says “I’m Kimberly” I say “I’M Kimberly!” and I don’t think my kid likes it. 📺

Sat, 27 Nov 2021 04:46:00 -0400

Anybody else get a little Billy-Crystal-as-Miracle-Max vibe from Brent Spiner’s performance as very-old Dr. Noonian Soong? 🖖🏻📺

🖖🏻📺 Depression doesn't need a reason. (Star Trek Discovery 4x02 spoilers)

Sat, 27 Nov 2021 04:32:00 -0400

This post contains minor spoilers for Star Trek Discovery Season 4 Episode 2, “Anomaly.”

Near the end of the latest episode of Discovery, Lt. Tilly tells Dr. Culbert that something feels off about herself, and that she’d like to talk to him about it in a professional context sometime.

This feels to me like a clear indication that Tilly is dealing with depression, anxiety, or both, and I’m very interested in following where this goes, especially as I read Tilly as my own sort of Discovery-avatar.

Over at Keith R. A. DeCandido’s recap for Tor.com, a commenter says,

The best thread for later is Tilly. Does she miss her mother? Is it about all the stress and loss and responsibility they’ve had? Mental health is an all too often ignored issue, so I hope they do it justice.

I, too, hope they do it justice, but what I don’t need is for there to be something Tilly’s depression is “about.” There certainly are things that can trigger depression, but the depression itself isn’t always a response to trauma. Sometimes it just happens because your body isn’t producing the chemicals it needs to.

I would love to see Tilly work through identifying how she’s feeling, struggling to decide between treatment options (or whether to go beyond talk therapy at all), and dealing with the consequences of whatever treatment she chooses. I’d also just love to see what mental health care looks like in the 32nd century.

But I don’t need there to be a reason she’s depressed.

Because depression doesn’t require a reason to appear.

Fri, 19 Nov 2021 12:18:00 -0400

I watched Star Trek Discovery 4x01 “Kobayashi Maru” last night and I have a lot of feelings. I’m happy to chat if you’d like to. Replies may contain spoilers. 🖖🏻📺

Wed, 17 Nov 2021 15:04:00 -0400

I just finished the Season 3 finale of #StarTrekDiscovery and wow. What a beautiful close to a season. I’m heartbroken for all the people who won’t be able to watch the premiere of Season 4 tomorrow. 🖖🏻📺

“Peak Performance,” Impostor Syndrome, and PhD Life, brought to you by Star Trek: The Next Generation 📺🖖🏻

Wed, 17 Nov 2021 12:48:00 -0400

I’ve been in the middle of a Star Trek: The Next Generation rewatch for months, maybe even more than a year. Maybe since before the pandemic started, I don’t remember. I often will fall asleep to a TNG episode. I do this with the same episode over and over until I actually watch it all the way through while I’m awake.

Back in May, just over a month out from my dissertation defense and with no plan for the future, the episode I slept through over and over again was “Peak Performance.” It’s one of my favorite episodes, for many reasons, and one reason is a B story focusing on Data. (Surprise!)

The A story is that a strategist named Kolrami has come aboard the Enterprise to evaluate the crew’s performance in a combat exercise. Kolrami is a jerk and has real problems with Commander Riker, suggesting that Riker’s jovial attitude is not compatible with strong leadership.

Kolrami is also super arrogant. He comes from a species called the Zakdorn, well known for producing the galaxy’s best strategists. He prides himself on his strategy and uses it for games as well as combat exercises; he is a grandmaster of a game called Stratagema. Riker challenges Kolrami to a game of Stratagema and loses after only a few moves. Thinking that with his fancy positronic brain Data might actually be able to beat Kolrami, Dr. Pulaski eggs Data on to play and eventually misleads Kolrami into believing Data has challenged him. Data agrees to the challenge, in spite of not initiating it.

Kolrami and Data play Stratagema and it lasts longer than the game with Riker did, but Data still loses. Then this exchange happens:

Pulaski: How can you lose? You’re supposed to be infallible.

Data: Obviously, I am not.

It seems like a simple and innocuous response, but Data goes on to remove himself from bridge duty, believing that his loss at stratagema indicates a defect in himself:

I have proven to be vulnerable. At the present time, my deduction should be treated with skepticism.

I am concerned about giving the captain unsound advice.

This has indicated that I am damaged in some fashion. I must find the malfunction.

I heard the exchange above and these lines from Data and felt a deep resonance in my heart. Isn’t this how so many people feel, all the time? Isn’t this especially how scholars feel? Especially if you are an overachiever, you may make it all the way to a PhD program and only know what it is to excel in everything, and then meet a challenge that you can’t surmount.

You might be pursuing a tenure-track job, have done all the things you’re supposed to do, and still not get hired. Maybe you have tons of publications, brilliant teaching evaluations, a robust record of service, and did important dissertation research. And it doesn’t matter.

Data explains to Picard why he has removed himself from the bridge and what prompted him to do so. Picard replies:

…it is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness. That is life.

Um, excuse me Captain, just a moment, I got something in each eye and it has caused them to water profusely and also has made sobs wrack my body, hold on…

In the end, Data challenges Kolrami to a rematch. We see them play, Kolrami moving more quickly and becoming more agitated by the moment, as Data plays slowly and maintains a calm expression. Kolrami suspends the game, yells “This is not a rematch. You have made a mockery of me!” and storms out of the room.

As Data’s colleagues come to congratulate Data on his victory, he points out that he didn’t win, though no game of Strategema has ever gone to as high a score as this one has. Data explains that Kolrami was playing for a win and assumed that was Data’s goal as well, but Data had in fact chosen his own goal: a draw. He let many opportunities that would have supported a win pass him by in order to maintain a balance that would let him challenge Kolrami indefinitely.

Is this a perspective that can be useful for anyone dealing with impostor syndrome, and especially PhDs moving away from the tenure track? I think so. The “victory condition” for a PhD is assumed to be a tenure track job, but I went in with the intention of learning about qualitative methods. Now, I write about qualitative research and am pursuing other writing and consulting opportunities. It’s not success by the usual metric, but it’s a path with which I am happy. And it’s a path where no one tells me to wait for tenure before I have a kid (whoops did it during the PhD!), do public scholarship, or have opinions. And thank goodness, because that’s a long wait for a train don’t come.

Tue, 09 Nov 2021 00:11:00 -0400

I’m more than 16 minutes into S3E1 of Star Trek Discovery and I haven’t seen Saru, Tilly, Stamets, Culber, Detmer, Owo, or Reno yet, so what are we even doing here? Also I can never have just one fave on a Star Trek. I always love a lot of the crew. 🖖🏻📺

EDITED TO ADD: I take it all back. There is a cat on screen. All is forgiven.

Thu, 28 Oct 2021 19:55:00 -0400

I’m about to log off for the night but I want to talk about #StarTrekProdigy so tell me about your favorite bits and I’ll reply tomorrow! (Replies may contain spoilers.) 🖖🏻📺💻

Fri, 15 Oct 2021 22:56:00 -0400

This thing where I need to sleep instead of staying up all night watching Star Trek: Discovery is really bumming me out. 🖖🏻

Fri, 15 Oct 2021 03:46:00 -0400

Don’t want to spoil the Lower Decks finale much but I was so distracted by my delight at encountering Captain Sonya Gomez I actually missed anything else in the first few minutes and had to rewind. Gomez is probably my favorite TNG character outside the main crew. 🖖🏻📺

Mon, 04 Oct 2021 22:16:00 -0400

💻📺🖖 Watched Star Trek: Lower Decks Season 1 Episode 1 & oh my goodness how fun is this show? So fun! Mariner is my fave. “Do you know Deanna Troi? Her body be bangin’!”

Sun, 03 Oct 2021 19:26:01 -0400

💻📺 Watched Salt Fat Acid Heat episode 1, “Fat.”

Sun, 03 Oct 2021 09:16:00 -0400

Excuse me I will be over here flailing because I just learned there is a licensed Star Trek TNG/X-Men crossover novel. 🖖📚📺🗯️

UPDATED TO ADD: Literally the day after I learned about this book it went on $0.99 ebook sale. Reader, I bought it.

Thu, 30 Sep 2021 03:35:00 -0400

🔖📺 Read Nathan Lane on Only Murders in the Building’s Big Twist.

Thu, 30 Sep 2021 03:29:00 -0400

🔖📺 Read Why Only Murders in the Building Is the Most Romantic Show on TV.

Mon, 27 Sep 2021 12:32:00 -0400

Asking for a friend: what do you think Kaz Brekker’s D&D class would be? Rogue? I feel like rogue. (The friend is me.) 📚📺🎲

Sun, 19 Sep 2021 15:01:00 -0400

Whoopi Goldberg has done a lot of great work in her career, but I think I’ll always feel that Guinan has been her greatest role. 🖖📺

Fri, 17 Sep 2021 20:11:00 -0400

So far in my rewatch of Star Trek: The Next Generation, episode 3x13, “Deja Q,” is my favorite. Having Data be Q’s tutor in humanity is brilliant. And the way John de Lancie says “Red alert!” when he first shows up is chef kiss perfect. 📺🖖

Book Review: FAN FICTION by Brent Spiner 📚📺🖖‍‍

Mon, 13 Sep 2021 11:19:00 -0400

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Quick head’s up: In this review, I use “Brent” to refer to the character and “Spiner” to refer to the author.

Publisher’s Summary:

Brent Spiner’s explosive and hilarious novel is a personal look at the slightly askew relationship between a celebrity and his fans. If the Coen Brothers were to make a Star Trek movie, involving the complexity of fan obsession and sci-fi, this noir comedy might just be the one.

Set in 1991, just as Star Trek: The Next Generation has rocketed the cast to global fame, the young and impressionable actor Brent Spiner receives a mysterious package and a series of disturbing letters, that take him on a terrifying and bizarre journey that enlists Paramount Security, the LAPD, and even the FBI in putting a stop to the danger that has his life and career hanging in the balance.

Featuring a cast of characters from Patrick Stewart to Levar Burton to Trek creator Gene Roddenberry, to some completely imagined, this is the fictional autobiography that takes readers into the life of Brent Spiner, and tells an amazing tale about the trappings of celebrity and the fear he has carried with him his entire life.

Fan Fiction is a zany love letter to a world in which we all participate, the phenomenon of “Fandom.”

Let’s get the fanfiction discussion out of the way.

If you are into fanfiction, you probably know that, despite anything the OED may tell you, fans (or fen, as we’re sometimes pluralized) write it as all one word: fanfiction. Spiner’s book is titled Fan Fiction. But there’s a reason, I promise! In spite of Spiner not writing this the same way as fans do, I can fanwank the title! The novel itself, you see, is mostly Fiction, and it’s about not only Brent dealing with the attentions of a scary Fan, but the ways in which Brent is a Fan himself.

There is a point at which Brent tells Patrick Stewart that he feels as if he is a character in a work of fanfiction. At first, I thought, “Whoa, an actor aware of fanfiction in 1991?” but then I remembered that this is Star Trek, one of the first media fandoms and the first fanzine-based media fandom, and that the first issue of a newsletter devoted to Data and Spiner was released in the fall of 1987, well before this book takes place. That newsletter (adorable titled Data Entries) published its first piece of fiction in issue 3, which was published in spring of 1988, again well before this novel takes place. It’s worth noting that the first issue of the newsletter discusses establishing a fan club for Spiner and later issues report that Spiner requested that fans not do this and that the newsletter not include photos of him out of makeup. While the driving force in the novel is a fan who is creepy as can be, there were a lot of active fans of Spiner’s who were careful to respect his privacy. All of this to say, of course by 1991 Brent would be aware of fanfiction, though whether he would have actually read any for Star Trek or anything else is something I don’t know.

What I loved:

This book is a lot of fun. Brent Spiner makes it impossible to know what draws on real life and what’s totally made up, though there are interviews where he clarifies it a bit.

I can’t include exact quotes because I only have an Advanced Reader’s Copy and not a final version, but I can share some of my own notes with you. I think that will illuminate what I love about the book better than a summary can.

There’s a point at which Brent goes to see a detective at the LAPD. This detective offers a lot of assistance regarding Brent’s stalker, but of course he finishes their meeting by telling Brent he has a TNG spec script that involves Data traveling back in time to the 20th century to team up with a character who is clearly a self-insert for the detective. But really, who among us doesn’t have a TNG spec script that features Data collaborating with a self-insert character? When I was in middle school, my best friend and I plotted out the beats of an episode where Data teams up with a middle school-aged flautist to communicate with the Crystalline Entity through music. The middle school-aged flautist was a self-insert for my best friend; Data was guaranteed to be a Data Sue for me if we had actually finished the script.

Spiner portrays himself as a nebbishy, anxious wreck, which completely contradicts the image I have of him in my head as a confident, charismatic, and hilarious performer. It made me feel more aligned with the character Brent, which is nice because as someone who sees myself in Data, there was the risk I would find Brent to be so different from his character as to be not relatable. I too am an apparently confident and charismatic person who is actually an anxious wreck. (Can women be nebbishy? If we can, I am on the inside but not externally.) Because of this, I found Brent super relatable.

We get a glimpse into the glamor of a Hollywood life here when Brent puts in a CD in his car in 1991. How fancy is he? My family didn’t get a car with a CD player in it until probably 2000 or later. We bought one with a tape deck in 1993.

Spiner references his comedy influences in the book frequently; at first, I didn’t think of him as a comedic performer, in spite fo thinking of him as a funny person, but remembering that he was part of a panel on humor in Star Trek as part of First Contact Day 2021 reminded me that this is, in fact, a huge part of his work. Spiner’s comedy chops shine through in the book, when he has Brent drop jokes in a classic comedic structure. Again, I can’t tell you the exact quotes, but there are a lot of places where my annotations say things like “Fucking hilarious” and “Brent Spiner is a goddamn delight.”

Spiner confirms what I already knew (and used for my Data cosplay at my dissertation defense): Data is not white. He is gold. I liked that he confirmed this and mentioned it pretty frequently.

Spiner portrays Gene Roddenberry and Majel Barrett-Roddenberry as freaking adorable. I don’t know what they were really like, and I know that Majel wasn’t the alpha and omega of Gene’s attractions and romantic/sexual relationships, but DAMN, so cute.

Spiner’s portrayal of his TNG classmates is, according to his SyFy interview, exaggerated; it’s also delightful. Levar Burton is the most enlightened hippie in hippietown and Patrick Stewart is 100% So Very RSC.

What I wanted more of:

There is a lot going on in this book, in spite of it focusing strongly on one storyline: Brent dealing with the mysterious fan who is stalking him and seems to believe she is his daughter from the Star Trek: The Next Generation episode “The Offspring” (almost there in my rewatch!), Lal. I wish we’d gotten to spend a little bit more time with any of it. It’s a fast and fun read but it wouldn’t have been hurt by I having more time on set, more time dealing with the mystery, more time with Brent handling his complicated relationship with FBI Agent Cindy Lou and her twin, private security guard Candy Lou.

What I need to warn you about:

Spiner’s writing voice here is sparse. I think this is because Spiner is putting on a Chandleresque voice; reading the Google Books preview for The Big Sleep confirmed this for me. I rarely read hard-boiled detective fiction or noir; I’m more of a Victorian/cozy kind of gal. Because of this, the voice took me by surprise. If you’re used to that kind of writing, I think you’ll go, “Yep.” If not, know that it’s an intentional style.

While Spiner imitates the voice of a hard-boiled detective here and “mem-noir” is a delightful neologism to describe what he’s written, this has a more optimistic vibe than is typical of noir or hard-boiled detective stories. There’s a mystery, the book is set in LA, and Cindy Lou and Candy Lou could be credibly called dames, but that’s where the similarities end.

There are a couple of anachronisms that I wonder if they’ll be in the finished book. There’s a point at which Spiner uses the word “besties,” which seems to have first appeared in 1991. So it’s possible it would be used in the context of this story, but it would be very cutting edge. There’s also a character described in the epilogue as having been taking online classes for years, and I can’t tell if the epilogue is supposed to be from the perspective of Spiner-now, as the prologue clearly is, or Brent-then. So that might be an anachronism or it might not, I can’t tell.

Some people have criticized Spiner’s portrayal of women in the book, especially the twins Cindy Lou and Candy Lou, as being too limited and focused on them as sexual objecsts. It’s a fair critique, but it didn’t bother me.

Final word: Fans of Star Trek: The Next Generation should definitely check this out. Noir readers might enjoy it too; Spiner does a good job of explaining things about the show that non-fans might otherwise confusing.

Book: Fan Fiction
Author: Brent Spiner
Publisher: St. Martin’s Press
Publication Date: October 5, 2021
Pages: 256
Age Range: Adult
Source of Book: Digital ARC from NetGalley

Wed, 08 Sep 2021 11:53:00 -0400

Loading my advanced readers’s copy of Brent Spiner’s mem-noir Fan Fiction to my ereader in honor of Star Trek Day. 📚📺🖖‍

Wed, 08 Sep 2021 09:27:00 -0400

Repping TNG Operations in my Lauren Christians Handmade dress for Star Trek Day. My kid told his teachers, “I’m being Spot because my mom is wearing her Data costume!” 🖖‍📺

Tue, 07 Sep 2021 11:20:00 -0400

📺🖖 In Star Trek: The Next Generation season 3, episode 11, “The Hunted,” there is a whole society of intellectual bros wearing blazers over turtlenecks & claiming something is impossible because they’ve “studied it thoroughly” (though never tried it). Academia vibes, y’all.

Tue, 24 Aug 2021 13:28:01 -0400

One of the many straws on the proverbial camel’s back that led me to stop watching THE CHAIR after only 8 minutes was when the dean said “We can’t add another line” for the junior scholar. 📺

Sun, 22 Aug 2021 07:37:00 -0400

📺 It’s been interesting seeing other (current or former) academians’ responses to THE CHAIR. I made it 8 minutes but once the notion of just getting through the tenure process and THEN shaking things up was mentioned, I had to stop. My heart was hurting.

Fri, 06 Aug 2021 23:02:00 -0400

It’s fine if you’ve been sleeping on SCHMIGADOON so far but this week they gave both Kristin Chenoweth and Jane Krakowski amazing songs so it might be a good time to catch up. 📺

Wed, 04 Aug 2021 06:07:00 -0400

📺 I’m not remotely close to caught up on The Owl House but I just want to say that Luz’s tailcoat and tutu combo is the dream. Via romanticwolf131 on Tumblr.

Fri, 30 Jul 2021 11:21:00 -0400

📚📺 At Electric Literature, Meera Vijayan writes about the value of seeing Alina Starkov build her strength a little at a time in the face of staggering self-doubt and how good representation doesn’t always require “strong” female characters.

Wed, 21 Jul 2021 14:03:00 -0400

🔖📺🍿This piece identifies what made LOKI less than ideal for me: Loki himself is constrained, not as grand or mischievous as we’re used to. Great piece overall:

Loki as Other: Why Do Queer and Female Viewers Love the Trickster? tor.com
Read: www.tor.com
tor.com https://www.tor.com/2021/07/20/loki-as-other-why-do-queer-and-female-viewers-love-the-trickster/#more-653029

Thu, 08 Jul 2021 23:44:00 -0400

Hulu has both Beetlejuice and Season 7 of Younger, see y’all next week. 📺🍿

Mon, 28 Jun 2021 07:52:00 -0400

🔖📺 Listen, as a 90s babybat I welcome the new Anne Rice television universe. 🦇

Sat, 19 Jun 2021 07:10:00 -0400

The layers of references in this poster are delightful: cats as Data and Geordi as Holmes and Watson chef kiss 🖖📺🖼️

Tue, 15 Jun 2021 15:58:00 -0400

💬📺 “No one likes having a curse, but if you take the right steps, it’s manageable.” - Eda the Owl Lady, The Owl House Season 1 Episode 4, “The Intruder”

Sat, 12 Jun 2021 13:30:00 -0400

Part of me is always working on a taxonomy and ontology of #StarTrekTNG episodes. (Currently: only Data can safely go down to the planet. A girl or woman befriends him.) 🖖📺

Fri, 11 Jun 2021 16:23:52 -0400

📺 watched Loki Season 1, Episode 1, “Glorious Purpose.”

Took me a little while to get into but I’m looking forward to seeing where the show goes. I love the TVA’s retro aesthetic and of course Tom Hiddleston is always excellent.

Thu, 10 Jun 2021 14:42:00 -0400

🍿📺🗯️ I just watched the two pre-Loki episodes of Marvel Studios LEGENDS and y’all the MCU gets more obtuse all the time. In comics they do periodic resets that make it easy for new people to jump in. The MCU is labyrinthine enough that I think it’s time it had one.

Tue, 01 Jun 2021 11:54:00 -0400

For #TrekTuesday, I’ll share that I spend a LOT of time wondering why we don’t see social scientists as key crew members on the Enterprise-D and the ethics of Deanna Troi’s talking to people about their feelings in front of other crew members. #StarTrek 🖖📺

Tue, 18 May 2021 16:13:00 -0400

📺 I’ve got 2 episodes left of SHRILL. It’s so weird being right in the middle of Annie and Gabe’s ages, too old to be an up-and-coming earnest millennial, too young to be a punk Gen Xer who had to negotiate growing up while staying cool.

Tue, 18 May 2021 13:38:00 -0400

📺 Fran is always my favorite on SHRILL. Today it’s because she says, “I just don’t think I can work somewhere where I’m not universally admired and beloved.” 💓

Tue, 11 May 2021 14:51:00 -0400

Me, watching STAR WARS: THE CLONE WARS: Battle, battle, battle. When are we going to get another DIPLOMACY episode? (Padme is my prequel era fave, OF COURSE.) 📺

Sun, 09 May 2021 17:07:00 -0400

🔖 I’ve started calling my kid Little One & after reading Meg Elison’s How Lwaxana Troi Became Our Space Aunt I couldn’t be happier to be aging into my natural camp grand dame-ness. 🖖🏻📺

Tue, 04 May 2021 12:41:00 -0400

You should probably look at Laz Marquez’s #StarTrekGala art project because it’s AWESOME. 🖖🏻🎨📺

Mon, 03 May 2021 16:04:00 -0400

🔖📺🖖 Read The Measure of a Man Demonstrates the Many Forms of Love by Anna E. Gant

Mon, 03 May 2021 15:48:00 -0400

🔖📺🖖 Hrisoula Gatzogiannis’s The Only Work Ethic I Care About Is the One on Star Trek details what Picard explains in the TNG episode “The Neutral Zone.” A 20th century man asks “What’s the challenge?” & Picard says “To improve yourself… enrich yourself.”

Sun, 02 May 2021 07:49:00 -0400

🔖📺 Read

On Disliking Mad Men justtv.wordpress.com
Read: justtv.wordpress.com
adornofangirl https://justtv.wordpress.com/2010/07/29/on-disliking-mad-men/

Fri, 30 Apr 2021 13:21:00 -0400

Frank Oz, on Miss Piggy:

She has a lot of vulnerability, which she has to hide, because of her need to be a superstar.

Quoted in Of Muppets and Men by Christopher Finch 💬📚📺🐸

Fri, 30 Apr 2021 13:16:00 -0400

Kermit, while he is no saint, has achieved a wonderful equilibrium in which a common sense and a hunger for the absurd are nicely balanced. Were he to represent common sense only, he would be a prig; if he represented only hunger for the absurd, he would just be another of the show’s eccentrics. It is the fact that he has managed to embrace both extremes that enables him to function as he does.

Christopher Finch, Of Muppets and Men 💬📚📺🐸

Thu, 29 Apr 2021 18:54:00 -0400

What we do is character comedy.

Jerry Juhl, head writer of The Muppet Show, quoted in Of Muppets and Men: The Making of the Muppet Show by Christopher Finch 💬📚📺🐸

Sun, 25 Apr 2021 21:01:00 -0400

Biggest takeaway from the first 5 episodes of SHADOW & BONE is that I want to get really good at embroidery & goldwork and make all the keftas. Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous. 📺

Fri, 23 Apr 2021 14:28:00 -0400

Hello I have watched the first episode of SHADOW & BONE and Jesper has now replaced Kaz as my Ketterdam favorite. (I don’t think my Ravka fave will appear this season.) Also yes I want to see #Legendborn get this treatment. 📺📚

Thu, 22 Apr 2021 21:08:41 -0400

🔖🍿📺 Read

Marvel movies have a weird relationship with kissing and romance - Polygon polygon.com
Read: www.polygon.com
polygon.com https://www.polygon.com/entertainment/22394564/marvel-cinematic-universe-kissing

(via baldur on micro.blog)

Thu, 15 Apr 2021 14:19:00 -0400

Exhausted from defense & migrainey because PCOS, so it’s time to settle in with some #StarTrekTNG. I’m doing a very slow rewatch. Today: “Samaritan Snare.” 🖖🏻📺

Wed, 14 Apr 2021 08:51:00 -0400

Me, when Wesley Crusher tells Guinan he always gets As:

Really? We’re still grading things in the 24th century?

🖖🏻📺

THE NEVERS as Disability Metaphor ♿ 📺

Tue, 13 Apr 2021 17:03:00 -0400

This post contains slight spoilers for The Nevers.

I just watched the first episode of The Nevers. Yes, it was created, written, and directed by Joss Whedon. Yes, I am appalled and heartbroken by the way he treated his colleagues on Buffy, Angel, and Justice League. That’s about all I have the heart to say about it. I’d like to talk about The Nevers now which, of course, can’t be completely separated from him, but also kind of is its own thing. As Austin Kleon says, “Art Monsters are not necessary or glamorous and they are not to be condoned, pardoned, or emulated” (Keep Going, p. 124) but also “bad people can make good art.” I haven’t decided if The Nevers seems like good art to me, but I can’t deny that a lot of JW’s other art has been central to my life for the past almost 22 years. So. I want to talk about this art, acknowledging the bad behavior of its creator.

I’m going to talk about The Nevers now, like I said.

Over at The Ringer, Alison Herman describes the protagonists of The Nevers as “Victorian Lady X-Men,” and this is not wrong.

Specifically, you’ve got a bunch of persecuted superpowered people living in a facility sponsored by a rich person who used a wheelchair.

Let’s talk for a minute about Lavinia Bidlow (played by “I am very British. I don’t say Hard Rs” Olivia Williams). Lavinia Bidlow uses a wheelchair. As far as I can tell, she herself is not one of The Touched (aka superpowered people) and has no turn (aka superpower). But she is extremely devoted to making sure that The Touched have a home and are safe and thus she sponsors the “orphanage” where many of them live and work. (There are rogue Touched and unaffiliated Touched, too. Like… Like mutants. In X-Men.)

So. Lavinia Bidlow, using a wheelchair presumably due to a disability, feels a great deal of sympathy and/or empathy for The Touched.

People often refer to The Touched as “afflicted.”

Mrs. Amalia True, head rounder-upper of Touched-who-need-protection, precog lady (not to be confused with Doyle/Cordelia’s power on Angel, which IIRC was more clairvoyance than precognition but usually conveniently early clairvoyance that often allowed time to save the person they saw) and skilled fighter, responds to Ominous Fancyman Lord Massen in this conversation:

Massen: I take it then that you are yourselves among the afflicted.

True: Touched, yes. We don’t consider ourselves afflicted.

Massen: Perhaps some women are more fortunate in the nature of their ailment than others.

True: That’s true, but more suffer from society’s perception than their own debilitation.

This set off little bells in my head, as it sounds very much to me like a TV superhero’s quick explanation of the social model of disability. From that moment I started watching this as if it were a supremely unsubtle metaphor for disability. I’m not sure if it works, but I do find it an interesting lens.

There’s also Maladie, who is the most prominent rogue Touched, is a serial killer, and certainly appears to live with a mental illness. (It is a perfectly valid criticism when Natalie Zutter at Tor.com says her dialogue “feels like it was collected from Drusilla’s cutting-room-floor musings.”) We see Maladie about to be carted off to an asylum in the flashbacks to the day when the Touched got their powers. And of course, “touched” has been used as a rather unkind euphemism for having mental illness.

I have invisible disabilities including autoimmune disease that is sometimes debilitating, migraines, depression, and anxiety. Lord Massen would call me more fortunate and there are certainly many forms of ableism I don’t face. But when I struggle to work through a migraine or have trouble going downstairs to the kitchen from my bedroom because all of my joints hurt, I wonder if there is a place in this world for me. So near the end of the episode, when strawberry-blonde Irish science nerd Penance Adair (your Willow/Kaylee stand-in and thus my fave) describes a feeling “that I’m here. I belong here… all of us that’s Touched, we’re woven into the fabric of the world and we’re meant to be as we are,” my heart swells and I think, “YES, I want to feel that way!” (I do, sometimes, but I want to feel it more.)

Does this all add up to a solid disability metaphor? Not yet, and it’s very possible what we’ll see here is a kind of “fantastic ableism” akin to the fantastic racism X-Men and other stories are critiqued for. But I’m watching with this lens now and I’m interested to see what I find.

I haven’t found anybody else approaching The Nevers this way, but if you have, I’d love to hear about it! I’d especially love a perspective from someone with more visible disabilities.

Tue, 13 Apr 2021 12:23:00 -0400

🔖Also, the Sesame Street Tiny Desk Concert made me tear up. 📺🎵

Tue, 13 Apr 2021 12:10:00 -0400

🔖 I highly recommend this video of the Yip Yip Invasion at Phoenix Comicon 2017, in which a group of cosplayers dress as The Martians from Sesame Street and hilarity ensues. 📺

Wed, 07 Apr 2021 14:35:00 -0400

I’m not saying I’m just saying I kind of wish the Season 2 finale of Picard would be Picard and Q’s wedding is all. 🖖🏻📺

Wed, 07 Apr 2021 13:23:00 -0400

Which Muppet do I most identify with? Well… 📺🍿

Wed, 07 Apr 2021 12:00:00 -0400

Don’t mind me, I’m just over here flailing in response to the Picard Season 2 Teaser Trailer. 🖖🏻📺🔖

Tue, 23 Mar 2021 08:13:00 -0400

My kid’s over here telling his dad a Magic Treehouse/Wild Kratts crossover story. 💗💓📚📺

Tue, 16 Mar 2021 12:42:00 -0400

🔖 I love this take. I’d love to see it even more fleshed out: WandaVision Is Basically a Retelling of the Scarlet Letter (LitHub) 📺

Thu, 04 Mar 2021 13:19:00 -0400

🔖 This piece about WandaVision & fan theories has me musing on the difference between trying to figure out who will make a cameo and, say, analyzing the cinematography in Veronica Mars to see how it draws on the visual language of noir. via Elizabeth Minkel. 📺

Wed, 03 Mar 2021 08:35:00 -0400

I remember when MCU fans were clamoring for WandaVision to reveal its big bad already & Ashley Esqueda said “maybe grief is enough” & it turns out it totally is. 📺

Tue, 02 Mar 2021 11:05:00 -0400

🔖 Check out Riana Mckeith’s period-appropriate cartoon homages to WandaVision. So great! It will surprise no one that the 80s one is my fave. (via kottke.org) 📺

Mon, 01 Mar 2021 14:53:00 -0400

What I’m learning from the MCU (caught up on WandaVision & currently watching Agents of SHIELD 3x15) is that everyone with a PhD in the natural sciences is good at hacking and creating algorithms. Scientists, is this true? 📺🍿

Fri, 19 Feb 2021 14:35:57 -0400

The latest episode of WandaVision has given me a new cosplay goal… 📺

Fri, 19 Feb 2021 14:29:33 -0400

Give Kathryn Hahn an Emmy. 📺

Fri, 05 Feb 2021 13:03:00 -0400

Every once in a while early Sesame Street drops in a random Carol Burnett segment and it brings me such joy. 📺

Sat, 23 Jan 2021 23:23:28 -0400

📺 Ugh, Dr. Pulaski is the worst. 🖖

Tue, 19 Jan 2021 22:06:00 -0400

🔖 The Deep Sadness of Marvel’s WandaVision: This is the kind of WandaVision thinkpiece I want. 📺

Sun, 17 Jan 2021 09:12:00 -0400

🔖 In “The Black Casting Choices in BRIDGERTON Were…A Choice”, Jessica Pryde explains the ways this was very much NOT colorblind casting. I especially appreciate her acknowledgement of the trauma related to maternal health outcomes. 📺

Fri, 15 Jan 2021 05:35:00 -0400

📺 I know the consensus is that Season 1 of Star Trek: The Next Generation is Not Good, but I find a lot in it to love. Q! The beginning of Data’s obsession with Sherlock Holmes! Dixon Hill! Lore & the crystalline entity! The introduction of the Borg! Geordi being hilarious! ♥️🖖

Sun, 10 Jan 2021 15:17:00 -0400

📺 Me, a former educator, watching the new Saved by the Bell: This is really good, but I feel like with a doctorate, it makes more sense for Jessie to be a school psychologist than a counselor.

Fri, 08 Jan 2021 17:03:36 -0400

📺 I’ve been watching Bridgerton & aside from the obvious fact that Lady Danbury & Eloise are the best, my biggest takeaway is that I really need to up my velvet coat game.

Kimberly Hirsh Presents: Things of Bronze Episode 3 - Teacher's Pet

Tue, 10 Nov 2020 04:50:00 -0400

It’s here! The long-awaited all-librarian episode of my Buffy the Vampire Slayer podcast! Transcript & show notes forthcoming.

Kimberly Hirsh Presents: Things of Bronze - Witch

Fri, 16 Oct 2020 17:15:00 -0400

I’m experimenting with podcasting about whatever I want. Here’s episode 2 of my Buffy podcast, Things of Bronze. This is episode 2, “Witch.” Or is it episode 3? IS IT TWO OR THREE? I know what Wikipedia says, but what do you think?

Kimberly Hirsh Presents: Things of Bronze - Welcome to the Hellmouth and The Harvest

Fri, 02 Oct 2020 17:35:00 -0400

I’m experimenting with podcasting about whatever I want. I’ve got 3 finished episodes of a planned Buffy the Vampire Slayer podcast called Things of Bronze, so I thought I’d go on and upload the pilot for it and see how it goes. Show notes and transcript coming soon!

Wed, 30 Sep 2020 23:15:58 -0400

In recent weeks I have watched all of Sherlock, finished tonight. It was fun, then it wasn’t fun, and then it was really upsetting and made me feel bad. Now I can’t sleep until I do something else that makes me feel better. 📺

Thu, 27 Aug 2020 11:54:00 -0400

📺 M. and I are watching MY LITTLE PONY: FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC and I am reminded of the extent to which I am Twilight Sparkle, who owns a reference book about slumber parties but has never had one.

Sat, 08 Aug 2020 11:32:35 -0400

🔖 Katie Yee’s Very Good Writing Advice from New Girl’s Nick Miller is the most delightful thing I’ve read this week, and makes me want to re-watch New Girl. 📝📺

Tue, 28 Jul 2020 13:23:31 -0400

📺 I recently binged Disney+’s Diary of a Future President, about an ambitious Latina middle schooler who one day becomes president. You should try it if you like Netflix’s BSC and/or One Day at a Time.

📺 Netflix's Babysitters Club: Response and Link Roundup 📚

Fri, 17 Jul 2020 13:58:31 -0400

I binged the Netflix Babysitters Club series last weekend. Growing up, I was not a Babysitters Club obsessive like many of my peers. They were one of the many series on offer that I enjoyed. The main thing about them that thrilled me was that, unlike many of the other books I read, they were books that other kids had also read and would talk to me about.

So. Not obsessive. But I’m still filled with nostalgia for them. And, unlike many of my peers seemed to do, I read them mostly in order, so the Netflix series sticking with the order for the first few episodes made me really happy. I told W. the other day that much as women older than us did with Sex and the City, many girls my age strongly identified with a particular BSC character. (In case you’re not familiar with this phenomenon, the main characters on SitC were Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte, and Miranda, and you could buy lots of merch that proclaimed things like “I’m a Samantha.” In case you’re curious, I’m a Charlotte with aspirations of being a Carrie.) Lucy Aniello, director of the Netflix BSC series, describes herself as “a Kristy with a Stacey rising” (and in case you aren’t familiar with that, it’s a reference to astrology. I’m a hard Mallory with some Kristy tendencies, who wished to be Claudia but was too good at school and bad at art to come close. (I did wear coordinated-but-mismatched earrings and hide candy all over my bedroom, though.)

I loved the show. Its tone is amazingly perfect. The performances are great. I would like Alicia Silverstone to be my co-parent, please. All of the things done to update it are beautiful and none of them feel weird. I don’t have a lot to say about the show itself besides that.

What really hit me this time around was Stacey. When I read the books, I was relatively poor, unfashionable (though not without style), and the only big city I had ever been to was Miami. Stacey was so far out of my reach. (By the way, the costume designs on the new show perfectly evoke the original characters; of all of them, though, Stacey’s outfits look the most like I think Stacey’s outfits should.) I was sickly, catching every virus that came my way and maxing out my 10 allowed absences before I started being considered truant, but I wasn’t ill.

Life is different now. Now I’m diagnosed with four chronic illnesses (two mental), with another one undiagnosed but likely. While illness doesn’t define me, it strongly shapes my experiences and decisions. And watching Stacey deal with that moved me so thoroughly. Stacey’s not wanting anyone to know about her diabetes, because then she won’t be a person anymore, she’ll be a sick person. Fearing the consequences. And, the point that actually brought me close to tears: after Stacey goes into insulin shock on the job, her having to face a room full of clients (along with her fellow BSC members, blessedly) and listen to them say things like “Do I even want her watching my kids if something like this could happen again?” (I’m paraphrasing here.) Y’all, the impact of chronic illness on work and hireability is real, and to see it in microcosm for a twelve-year-old was every bit as affecting as seeing it for an adult would be, if not moreso.

Anyway. That was a new perspective. A part of me wants to go read the books again and pay close attention to how my feelings about Stacey are different now.

So. I didn’t have a lot of insight to offer on the series, just my personal response, but if you want to read more about it, here are a bunch of interesting and relevant articles:

‘The Baby-Sitters Club’ Is Back: Help Yourself to the Fridge (New York Times)
The Baby-Sitters Club Taught Me Everything I Needed to Know About Literary Fiction (New York Times)
‘The Baby-Sitters Club’ Defies and Exceeds Expectations (New York Times)
How The Baby-Sitters Club raised a generation (Vox)
‘The Baby-Sitters Club’ Gives Us Intersectional Feminism Without the Angst (Gen)
Why THE BABY-SITTERS CLUB Netflix Series is Even Better Than the Books (Book Riot)

Thu, 16 Jul 2020 15:26:00 -0400

🔖📺 Alex Brannan’s article, “It Could Be About Anything”: Middleditch & Schwartz and the Viability of Televised Improv Comedy is an interesting read. Longform improv is definitely hard to explain to non-improv normies but also, in my experience, it’s um, not great fun for most people who aren’t “yes…and” nerds, as Thomas Middleditch calls them, to watch. Like… Does anybody NOT initiated into longform WANT to watch a Harold? Maybe they do, but I’m not sure. By the time I was about to stop performing improv, I was over the Harold as an audience member. And I got to see some really amazing teams. Still not a format I would recommend to just anybody. It’s a performance art piece as much as a comedy piece. I don’t know. Anyway, I’d been thinking about watching the show and now I definitely will.

It’s worth noting that I myself never was on a team that did longform without a gimmick. I think our gimmicks were a huge part of the fun for me. We may never know if I would be able to sustain interest in performing the Harold for longer than a six-week class.

Sat, 11 Jul 2020 22:51:59 -0400

📺 “Parents are just older weirdos, doing the best they can. Just like the rest of us.” Netflix’s Babysitters Club series makes me feel seen on so many levels.

Mon, 13 Apr 2020 17:32:01 -0400

📺 So is Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist a jukebox-musical version of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend?

Thu, 09 Apr 2020 05:21:41 -0400

📺 My wishlist for Picard Season 2:

Geordi
More Spot II

Sat, 04 Apr 2020 16:56:00 -0400

Something about watching Picard gives me the same feeling as reading a novel and I love it. 📺🖖

I like The Muppets (2015) TV show more than I thought I would. 📺

Sun, 22 Mar 2020 21:49:45 -0400

_My brother gave me [this Muppet version of The Phantom of the Opera ](https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/546080/muppets-meet-the-classics-the-phantom-of-the-opera-by-gaston-leroux-and-erik-forrest-jackson-illustrated-by-owen-richardson/) a couple Christmases back, and I have genuinely never felt more seen in my entire life._

Back in June 2019, M. and I visited the Center for Puppetry Arts in Atlanta, GA while accompanying W. on a work trip. They have a whole gallery devoted to Jim Henson’s work. My family has always been a Muppet family, I suppose because my parents had only been married a couple of years when The Muppet Show started airing and I wasn’t born until it had been on the air for four years. I saw it a great deal, so it must have been available in second-run syndication. And then of course there were the movies, which I watched many a time.

This visit to the Center for Puppetry Arts reminded me of my long-standing affection for The Muppets, something I hadn’t thought about overly much since purchasing the Blu-Ray of the 2011 movie The Muppets, which I adore. Truly, coming around a corner from the Sesame Street part of the gallery to the Muppet part of the gallery, I saw Kermit the Frog sitting on a director’s chair in a glass case and it was like seeing an old friend. I think I may actually have said hello to him.

Since that trip, I have slowly been bringing M. into my Muppet obsession. I think it may have begun with this adorable clip of Kermit and a little girl on Sesame Street:

and continued with “Mahna Mahna”:

I’m not sure what order the rest of it all proceeded in, but it involved the Kermit stuffy I bought at the Center for Puppetry Arts, an old Muppet Babies Kermit stuffy from my childhood, a squeaky Muppet Babies Miss Piggy toy that my sister found in her house, some Muppet picture books that are probably over 35 years old (and not in great condition), and The Muppet Movie. Through all of these activities, our household is in the throes of Muppet Fever, and I love it. M. has been especially obsessed with Muppets Most Wanted, he says because he likes that there are two frogs in it (not counting Robin’s brief cameo). We used an audiobook on a doublet set of the novelizations of the two most recent Muppet movies. He falls asleep to it every night.

Earlier this week, when we had just finished watching Muppets Most Wanted and he said he wanted to watch more Muppets stuff, we decided to try the 2018 Muppet Babies. I had tried it once before and not been able to handle the CG-ness of it, but I will try just about anything for him. It’s actually super cute and has some phenomenal jokes and references for parents.

Since I hadn’t liked this before but was finding it fun now, I decided to try the muppets.. I had been very excited when it was announced, and immediately turned off by the clear references to The Office which is just not for me. I didn’t like the mockumentary style and I was really displeased by the character design for Kermit’s not-Miss Piggy-but-still-a-pig girlfriend. But that was 2015, and this is now! So I started it.

I’ve really been enjoying it. The writing is sharp; the showrunner was one of the writers on Muppet*Vision 3-D, which does a brilliant job of capturing Muppetness. There was an uproar when the show came out about its depiction of relationships, sexuality, and alcohol use as being inappropriate for a “family” property, but one of the earliest Muppet specials was called The Muppet Show: Sex and Violence, so that really doesn’t bother me.

I think the show gets better further in to the run, as the really familiar bits of character come out.

One critic compared it to Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip, but I think it really has a 30 Rock vibe.

One of my favorite things about it is how very much screentime Uncle Deadly gets. He leaped into my top 3 muppets (after Kermit and Piggy) after I saw him in the 2011 movie and, upon researching him, discovered that he is the Phantom of the Muppet Show.

Anyway: I have loved watching this show and am looking forward to the episodes I have remaining. I have been reminded that I have no other OTP that I cling to as fiercely as I cling to Kermit/Piggy.

Finally, if you, too, are obsessed with Muppets, especially if you have seen The Avengers and understand fandom tropes, please go read what is possibly my favorite fanfiction ever written, Avengers: Earth’s Muppetest Heroes.

Sat, 07 Mar 2020 22:56:12 -0400

📺 Watched Star Trek: The Next Generation, season 1, episode 23, “Skin of Evil.”

Sat, 07 Mar 2020 18:16:48 -0400

📺 Watched Star Trek: The Next Generation Season 1 episodes 1 & 2, “Encounter at Farpoint.”

As a kid, family viewing of TNG was one of my favorite things. I had an immense crush on Wesley Crusher (and still do on Wil Wheaton) and fancied myself a bit of a Spiner femme. The show aired from when I was 6 to when I was 12, and in middle school my best friend and I plotted a spec script where a teen flautist is the only one who can communicate with the Crystalline Entity and also befriends Data. We never actually wrote or submitted it. At the time, I thought Jean-Luc Picard was very cool, the kind of guy who would be a great mentor.

Now, at 38, I find myself having very different feelings about Picard, specifically that he is possibly the most attractive fictional character ever. I attribute this not only to my middle-aged hormones, but also to the fact that now he reminds me of my husband (the most attractive real person ever, to me, anyway). His blend of calm and intensity is :chefkiss:.

And now I realize too (and actually have for a while now) that Data’s appeal is about the extent to which I identify with him, for I, too, am a walking, talking computer trying to generate algorithms that will make me more human.

Also, Geordi LaForge needs to be my BFF.

Sun, 23 Feb 2020 20:36:00 -0400

📺 Watched Brooklyn 99:

Season 6 -

episode 18, “Suicide Squad”

Season 7 episodes -

1, “Manhunter”
2, “Captain Kim”
3, “Pimemento”
4, “The Jimmy Jab Games II”

I’m blown away by how this show has stayed so good for so long.

Tue, 04 Feb 2020 21:20:00 -0400

📺 Watched Star Wars: The Clone Wars, Season 1 episode 7, “Duel of the Droids.”

Sat, 01 Feb 2020 23:17:00 -0400

📺 Watched Ranma 1/2, season 1, episode 1.

Sat, 01 Feb 2020 21:24:00 -0400

📺 Watched Sailor Moon, Season 1, episodes 1 & 2.

Sat, 01 Feb 2020 21:01:00 -0400

📺 Watched Star Wars: The Clone Wars, Season 1 episodes:

1 “Ambush”
2 “Rising Malevolence”
3 “Shadow of Malevolence”
4 “Destroy Malevolence”
5 “Rookies”
6 “Downfall of a Droid”

I really enjoyed Yoda being awesome in “Ambush,” but the rest of these are a bit space battle-heavy for my tastes. I watched most of them while cleaning, so I didn’t pay super close attention. I’m looking forward to later seasons when things involve more diplomacy.

Mon, 13 Jan 2020 22:43:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, Season 3, episode 8, “A Jewish Girl Walks into the Apollo…”

Sat, 11 Jan 2020 23:02:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, Season 3, episodes:

4 “Hands!”
5 “It’s Comedy or Cabbage”
6 “Kind of Bleu”
7 “Marvelous Radio”

I loved how they handled Midge’s dynamic with Lenny Bruce. I’m also really digging Liza Weil’s performance as Carole Keen.

Tue, 07 Jan 2020 23:01:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Mandalorian “Chapter 8: Redemption”

Tue, 07 Jan 2020 22:14:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Mandalorian “Chapter 7: The Reckoning”

Tue, 07 Jan 2020 12:05:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Mandalorian “Chapter 6: The Prisoner”

Sun, 05 Jan 2020 15:54:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Mandalorian “Chapter 5: The Gunslinger”

Thu, 02 Jan 2020 13:40:00 -0400

📺 Watched The Mandalorian “Chapter 4: Sanctuary”

📺 She-Ra and Girl Culture

Sat, 19 May 2018 12:41:00 -0400

When I learned Noelle Stevenson was showrunning a She-Ra reboot, I was psyched. I haven’t read Lumberjanes or Nimona yet, but her Avengers fan art and D&D tweets are top-notch. I was super into She-Ra as a kid, and I love that this new one is called She-Ra and the Princesses of Power.

I’m on board with modern girl culture, at least as it’s manifesting in animation and comic books. I was talking to another parent recently who said she’d been afraid to let her daughter watch My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic, but was pleasantly surprised by how feminist it was.

I recommended she look into DC SuperHero Girls and see if she would feel okay sharing that with her daughter, because I think it has a similar vibe.

And I need to read the “new” Jem and the Holograms comic, I know.

I love that the stories I’m seeing about girls and young women in these media place the girls at the center and let them have their own adventures. Romance tends to be sidelined. The girls are dealing with identity development and relationship building. Each of these properties has characters who are so different from each other in their interests and personalities. We’re seeing that there’s no one right way to be a girl or a woman, and I love that. The other thing I love is how they take colors and art styles that are coded feminine and use them to communicate that you don’t have to choose between strength and femininity, and that there are many different ways to be strong.

I’m sure none of them is perfect and I know that they are vehicles for selling toys, but I’m still excited about them.

I would buy that She-Ra poster and hang it on my office wall.

(By the way, DC SuperHero Girls creator Shea Fontana is going to be at ALA Annual and you can bet I’ll be at her session. DC SuperHero Girls is an incredibly accessible way to get to know the DC universe and figure out which characters appeal to you. I say this as an inveterate Marvel loyalist.)

Out of the Madhouse

Thu, 17 May 2007 14:28:00 -0400

…yesterday my life’s like, “Uh oh, pop quiz.” Today it’s “rain of toads.”

Thus spoke Xander Harris in part two of Buffy the Vampire Slayer’s pilot episode, “The Harvest.” Even in its later seasons, Buffy didn’t have the special effects budget to create an on-screen rain of toads. The advantage to books is you aren’t limited by those sorts of budget constraints. In Out of the Madhouse, Christopher Golden and Nancy Holder bring the rain of toads, along with all the trolls, sea monsters, skyquakes, and nasty Cordelia-chasing demons you could ever hope for. What’s that, you say? Trouble in Sunnydale? Must be Tuesday. The difference is, this time, it’s all happening at once. Also? Giles is out of town. It turns out there’s an interdimensional mansion in Boston that’s been keeping these monsters at bay, but now its caretaker, the “Gatekeeper,” is ailing and his magic is weakening. Buffy, Xander, Cordelia and Giles head to Boston to put a stop to the monster leak, while Willow, Oz, and Angel hold down the fort against an invasion of evil monks who are out to get Buffy. (Note: I said evil monks not evil monkeys.)

Like any tie-in, Out of the Madhouse suffers from the fact that you can’t kill off major characters. What you can do, however, is injure them severely, and in every fight scene in Out of the Madhouse I expected someone - usually Cordelia - to end up in the hospital. Out of the Madhouse has a structure somewhat like a multi-episode arc; you’ve got the main problem of new scary monsters, plus signs that the Watcher’s Council might be sketchy, subplots involving outside forces looking to hurt Buffy, and some new recurring characters who are quite likeable. The dialogue is strong, though not Whedon-quality, and except for the wild special effects that would be necessary to pull it off and the unlikely requirement of on location filming in Boston, I completely believed that this was a story I might see on the show itself. Add in a surprise ending and you’ve got a recipe for fun and nostalgia. (Plus, Golden and Holder manage to avoid the Ethan Rayne trap!)

I’d recommend Out of the Madhouse to any Buffy fan looking for stories to tide them over between issues of the comic book or to take them back to the good old days.

Book: Buffy the Vampire Slayer - The Gatekeeper Trilogy, Book One: Out of the Madhouse
Author: Christopher Golden and Nancy Holder
Publisher: Simon Spotlight Entertainment
Original Publication Date: 1999
Pages: 384
Age Range: Young Adult
Source of Book: Library