🔖 The spellbinding history of cheese and witchcraft is the witchy content I didn’t know I needed. 🧙‍♀️🧀

I’m so psyched to read all the articles fan studies scholars are going to write about #DeanCasWedding.

Doing more lurking/replying than posting rn. I’ve blocked Twitter on my phone. It redirects me to Austin Kleon’s How to Read More post. I do enjoy book & Trek & ac/alt-ac talk tho so I will still visit on my laptop a bit & will link to my long blog posts.

Want to read: Bookish Broads by Lauren Marino 📚

Want to read: We Play Ourselves by Jen Silverman 📚

I added >1000 words to the theory chapter of my dissertation today. I’ve still a ways to go, but it’s nice to see such progress.

🔖 One option the New York Times didn’t mention in their piece about keeping a digital commonplace book: doing it on your own website.

It was kind of fun to see one of my drama professors from undergrad in M. L. Rio’s acknowledgements for If We Were Villains. Plus two actors I helped every night in a production of Art.

Finished reading: If We Were Villains by M. L. Rio 📚

🔖 This deep-dive into fans reverse-engineering knitwear like Bernie’s mittens & the fourth Doctor’s scarf sits at the center of a Venn diagram of two of my interests, fandom & textiles. I love it.

🔖 Jess Zimmerman’s latest Dead Channel compares the old Internet to Faerie & tackles what it means to know someone’s handle. It resonated especially with me bc when I recently said “I’m Kiba” to someone I know outside of fandom, she said, “YOU’RE Kiba?”

Got about 500 words written today. Hoping to go faster moving forward. I slept poorly last night and woke up about every 2 hours. I had a pretty good day for such an underslept person.

I’ve been low-key reading all the tie-in comics for the Marvel Cinematic Universe in release order. Most are skippable, but Zombies Assemble is fun. I’m using MCU Reading Order & Marvel Unlimited to help me track them down. 🗯

Want to read: Tom Stoppard: A Life by Hermione Lee 📚

Making progress on both dissertation & assistantship today. Beginning to feel like I might get this dissertation revised in time after all.

🔖 My granddaddy got his Ed. D. in 1972 and I just found the record for his dissertation in the UF catalog.

Writing that theory chapter…

We went to the NC Museum of Art Park as a family Saturday. It was a really nice change of pace from our usual neighborhood trails & city parks. The park is full of giant art that looks like it belongs in a fantasy movie or video game.

In case you’re following along, this morning the impostor syndrome was so bad I could feel it in my chest, but after doing like my advisor & friend+methods expert suggested & going back to the literature I’m starting to put ideas together & feeling less impostorly.

🔖 Highly recommended: Library Ambience Sounds for Studying / Relaxing White Noise.

Okay. Reorganized my work and my thinking and feeling better about my ability to be the kind of scholar I want to be. Phew.

New plans for this afternoon: Eat. Cry. Get back to work.

I feel like Charlie in Flowers for Algernon, knowing he used to be smart. I think, “Remember when I was a good scholar and knew how to do things? I could talk & write intelligently about theory and methods.” This feeling actually makes me cry. I can be that scholar again, right?

Every once in a while early Sesame Street drops in a random Carol Burnett segment and it brings me such joy. 📺

🔖 In Back-Talking The Tone Police: Book People Are Not Your Enemy, Tika Vateri says all the things I couldn’t articulate in response to Joanna Mang’s We Have to Save the Books from the Book People. 📚