Epistolary RPGs have me writing fiction again. šŸ“

I mentioned in my month notes for September that I’ve been playing epistolary RPGs with my friend K.

K lives three states away from me and is a trailing spouse; his husband got a tenure-track professor job and as one does, K moved with him to the area where the university is. Unfortunately, the gaming scene there wasā€¦ not what K was looking for. So in the hopes of combatting some of Kā€™s trailing spouse isolation, we started a D&D game that we play over Zoom with a couple of our other friends who are local to me and thus also far from K.

But getting 4 busy people together at the same time is hard and that group will often go 9 months or more without playing.

I buy charity bundles on itch.io sometimes and I noticed that some of the games there are for only two people and are easy to play asynchronously, so I asked K if he wanted to try some of those and he did, so here we are.

The obvious benefits of this kind of game are that you can play it whenever one of you has time and the other can then catch up at their convenience. There are a lot of different ways of doing it, but we play in a shared Google Doc we create for each game.

So far the games we’ve played have used a deck of cards, either standard playing cards or Tarot, to randomly select prompts for you to address in writing as you play.

I anticipated the gaming benefits of this style of play, but what’s been a delightful surprise is the effect it’s had on my writing and my writerly identity.

I thrive as a writer of fiction when I know there is an audience of at least one. In fifth grade, we had to write stories using vocabulary words and I wrote a series featuring characters based on my classmates. They eagerly awaited each new installment. In ninth grade, I wrote a story called The Hog Prince and shared it with friends.

I prefer writing fanfiction to writing original fiction partly because I know where to publish it and know that someone will read it.

An epistolary RPG means that the other player(s) are going to read what you wrote, so that audience I crave is built in, with no delays for publication.

Like fanfiction, when you’re writing in these games you kind of get to play with someone else’s toys. And when the players know each other well, you can give each other gifts in the text. You can make something appear that you don’t have a plan for but that you know another player will do something great with. Which is even nicer, I think, than just picking up and playing with toys that weren’t built for you.

A third piece of these games that makes them really work well for me is that they inherently require you to be creative within constraints. Kate Bingaman Burt gave a great TEDx talk about the value of these kind of constraints. I’m the kind of person who gets paralyzed by the number of choices available when doing something creative. I could write anything, so I don’t know how to begin, so I write nothing. The prompts in these games and the contributions of other players mean that I don’t have to choose a starting point, and that’s huge. And if I get stuck, well, soon I’ll have a new prompt to work with.

If you’ve been struggling to do creative writing, maybe find a way to make it a game. There are solo RPGs you can play this way, too, and maybe I’ll try one of those soon.

Monthnotes: September 2024

If you asked me what happened in September 2024 and I answered without looking at my calendar, Iā€™d say nothing much. My mom was hospitalized for pretty much the whole month (with any luck sheā€™ll go home tomorrow) with idiopathic colitis that seems to have gotten better but was never explained.

But if I look at my calendar, I see that it was actually a full month with a lot of fun stuff going on. So here we go!

Fun

Our local Bricks & Minifigs had their grand opening. W. and I took M. and his best friend. My brother joined us, too. The line was long and it was sunny, but eventually we got in and I got what I had come for: Kermit and Miss Piggy minifigures. W. won the raffle grand prize, which is a Back to the Future Time Machine set signed by the Broadway cast of Back to the Future. Iā€™m torn because this is a set I really want to build but I know building it will ruin any collector value it has, so. I donā€™t know. I guess maybe Iā€™ll buy the set separately sometime? I also got a couple of the D&D Minifig surprise bags.

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W. and I went to see [Clue Live On Stage](https://clueliveonstage.com/, which was incredibly fun. Itā€™s got all your favorite stuff from the movie, and lots of other jokes that you can only do in live theater.

A family weā€™ve known for a while since their kid and M. have been in school together hosted a Chilean Independence Day party, which was very fun to go to. And I remembered that I donā€™t need to try Pisco Sour again because it is way too strong for me.

W.ā€™s mom wanted to take M. to Paperhand Puppetā€™s annual show, so we all went along with M.ā€™s best friend and his dad. The artistry of these giant puppets is incredible and I loved seeing how clever they were doing things like having bubbles come out of fishesā€™ mouths. The scale of those puppets is not to M.ā€™s liking so I donā€™t think weā€™ll go next year, but I do hope to see them at a fairy festival or something sometime because theyā€™re very cool to look at.

My friend K. and I have been playing epistolary RPGs, which are great because he lives in another state. We just have a shared Google Doc to play in. First we played The Only Amenity in This Endless Dungeon is a Daemonic Postal Service and then we started Tether.

Work

We had Back to School Night, where caregivers come and learn a bit about how their kidsā€™ days go and what to expect over the course of the school year. My role was to hang out in the library and chat with the grown-ups who wanted to learn more about the library. It was really great to meet everyone and talk with them about their kidsā€™ use of the library. One parent expressed interest in volunteering in the library, so Iā€™m in the process of getting that set up.

Another parent who has been volunteering in the library for years really started working in earnest once I finally figured out what would be most helpful for her to do, and that has melted away tons of stress I had about not being able to get everything done in 20 hours a week. Is it still enough work for a full-time position? Of course it is, but at least now I can focus my attention on the things only I can do, like instructional support, collaboration, and collection development.

Speaking of instructional support, I put together both print and digital resources for the 1st & 2nd year (equivalent of 1st & 2nd grade) classes about North American animals. This is a fun way for me to learn about whatā€™s already in our collection. I also pulled together statistics about things kids were interested in for a 4th year rounding lesson, which it sounds like the kids really enjoyed.

Stress

Thereā€™s been one big source of stress, which is that in August I took my and W.ā€™s watches to get their batteries replaced, as a little anniversary gift left over from our anniversary in July (15 years modern gift is watches but we both already had great watches, hence watch batteries) and the glass on W.ā€™s limited edition Mr. Jones Sun and Moon Miyamoto watch got broken. The store employee told me theyā€™d send it to a jeweler and have it ready in a few days. I didnā€™t hear from them and after a month, I finally went back and asked about it. The store employee took my name down and said heā€™d look into it and call me. Two more weeks went by and I had no word, so Monday I went down there and was ready to just ask them to give me the watch and Iā€™d take it to a jeweler. But they tracked it down, I laid eyes on it, they corrected my phone number because the original person had written it down wrong, and then they called me later to confirm it was at the jeweler. So hereā€™s hoping that gets resolved soon.

Media

I read 6 books, a bit of a slow down from earlier in the year but what can you do? When you go from unemployed to employed, your reading is going to slow down a bit.

W. and I have been watching the new season of Only Murders in the Building. We watched the latest season of Hilda as a family and finished up a Gravity Falls family watch, too.

My brother and I saw Beetlejuice Beetlejuice in the theater. Beetlejuice is such a critically formative piece of media for me. There was no way its sequel could hold a candle to it in terms of having a place in my heart. But I think they did a great job. Itā€™s super fun and I think has exactly the vibes that a 35-years-later sequel to Beetlejuice should. Also I love our Baby Goth Queen Jenna Ortega.

I played a little bit of Dragon Age: Origins but once my mom was super extra sick, I didnā€™t want something that intense, so Iā€™ve been playing Disney Dreamlight Valley, which pleases me greatly.
Whew. Thatā€™s enough that I think maybe itā€™s time for me to start doing weeknotes instead of monthnotes.

How was your September?

šŸ“š Book Review: When We Flew Away by Alice Hoffman

Book cover for ā€˜When We Flew Awayā€™ by Alice Hoffman featuring an illustrated sunset or sunrise over Amsterdamā€™s skyline with a silhouette of Anne Frank in front of a window, underlined by praise from Lois Lowry.When We Flew Away by Alice Hoffman is a middle grade novel that imagines what Anne Frankā€™s life might have been like before she had to move to the attic of her fatherā€™s office building. Hereā€™s the publisherā€™s description:

Bestselling author Alice Hoffman delivers a stunning novel about one of contemporary history’s most acclaimed figures, exploring the little-known details of Anne Frank’s life before she went into hiding.

Anne Frank’s The Diary of a Young Girl has captivated and inspired readers for decades. Published posthumously by her bereaved father, Anne’s journal, written while she and her family were in hiding during World War II, has become one of the central texts of the Jewish experience during the Holocaust, as well as a work of literary genius.

With the Nazi occupation of the Netherlands, the Frank family’s life is turned inside out, blow by blow, restriction by restriction. Prejudice, loss, and terror run rampant, and Anne is forced to bear witness as ordinary people become monsters, and children and families are caught up in the inescapable tide of violence.

In the midst of impossible danger, Anne, audacious and creative and fearless, discovers who she truly is. With a wisdom far beyond her years, she will become a writer who will go on to change the world as we know it.

Critically acclaimed author Alice Hoffman weaves a lyrical and heart-wrenching story of the way the world closes in on the Frank family from the moment the Nazis invade the Netherlands until they are forced into hiding, bringing Anne to bold, vivid life.

Based on extensive research and published in cooperation with the Anne Frank House in Amsterdam, When We Flew Away is an extraordinary and moving tour de force

.Iā€™m going to diverge from my usual review format for this book and be a bit more stream of consciousness. But I hope youā€™ll still get a sense of the book and whether it might be for you, someone you love, or someone you work with.

Iā€™ve never read anything by Alice Hoffmann before, and many other reviews talk about her using lyrical language and that being a struggle for them. For me, the early chapters of the book read like a middle grade nonfiction book, describing Anneā€™s experiences, with little dialogue or direct action portrayed. I think thatā€™s a bit tricky, especially for a book like this that isnā€™t nonfiction but draws heavily on research and might be hard to distinguish from nonfiction.

The lack of action and dialogue made it hard for me to read this at first, but eventually I really got into imagining Anneā€™s life in the city of Amsterdam, and thatā€™s what really brought the book to life for me. I think many of us only imagine Anne in hiding during the Holocaust, rarely thinking about the many years of her life before this event that both defined her literary voice and led to her death.

Thatā€™s the great joy in When We Flew Away for me: thinking about her daily life before going into hiding. Anne went to bookstores. She ate ice cream. She flirted with boys. She ice skated. And all of these activities and more are things she does in this book.

Like many women, I imagine, Anne Frankā€™s diary was very important to me as a young person. I first read it in sixth or seventh grade. I read it again before auditioning for the play adaption of it when I was in ninth grade, and I think Iā€™ve probably read it again as an adult. One of the things thatā€™s so remarkable about Anne Frankā€™s diary is how true to the developmental experiences of a wide variety of Western teenagers across time and place it is. I think many young people reading it can see their own dreams and anxieties, family relationships and hopes for romance, in Anneā€™s writing.

Because Anneā€™s writing has been so important to me, I made it a priority to visit the Anne Frank House while I was in Amsterdam. Before you go into the attic, you walk through rooms with video and audio about the time Anne was living in and the expansion of Nazi occupation into the Netherlands. Then you walk through the bookcase hiding a secret door and up a very narrow staircase (typical of staircases in Amsterdam) and find yourself in the attic.

Wandering through the rooms, I was disheartened by how hard it was to feel connected to that time long ago and the people who lived there, even though I was in their space. I was surprised by the things that really made me feel closer to their experience: the pencil lines on the wall tracking Anne and Margotā€™s heights. The view of a tree through the one place Anne could see the sky.

The image shows a wall with handwritten lines and numbers measuring Anne and Margot Frankā€™s heights.
The wall where the Franks kept track of Anne and Margotā€™s growth. Over two years, Margot grew only 1 centimeter, but Anne grew over 13 centimeters. This photo is from the Anne Frank Houseā€™s digital collection.

And of course, seeing the diary itself. That was the most powerful thing of all.

A picturesque canal scene features traditional Dutch row houses, a boat on the water, and people walking and biking nearby, with a reflection in a glass window.
The view out the window of the cafe at the Anne Frank House. Anne Frank would have seen this canal and these houses when she went to visit her father at her office, and as she entered the building when she was moving into the attic.

In the same way that seeing these things helped me understand Anneā€™s experiences, reading this book and thinking about the things I experienced in Amsterdam beyond the Anne Frank House added a whole new dimension to my understanding of her life. Anne walked the same streets I did. She looked at the same houses I did. She went to the same parks.

A tree with bare branches is set against a clear blue sky with a few clouds.
A tree in the Vondelpark, a park Anne visited.

Readers who need action and dialogue to stay engaged with a book will struggle with this book, but readers who want details that help them imagine other peopleā€™s lives more fully will find so much here.

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A bronze statue of Anne Frank is around the corner from the house itself.

Book: When We Flew Away
Author: Alice Hoffman
Publisher: Scholastic
Publication Date: September 17, 2024
Pages: 304
Age Range: Middle Grade
Source of Book: ARC via NetGalley

What I've learned after a month on the job as a part-time school librarian

Itā€™s been a full month since the official first day at my new job, and weā€™ve had the kids at school for three weeks. And, as you might expect, in that time Iā€™ve learned some things.

Thereā€™s a 40-minute recess period before lunch and I have the library open during that time. Kids are welcome to come in, check out books, sit and read, or draw. In the first two weeks, I felt slammed during that time. There will often be a LOT of kids in the library. Maybe eventually Iā€™ll actually count but all I know is it feels like maybe as many as 30 at a time. And inevitably 8 - 10 of these kids will require my help at once: to find a book, to check out a book, to suggest a book that we purchase. I am so glad theyā€™re there, so happy that so many kids (there are about 130 at the school and I would guess at least a third of them come through at some point in lunch recess) are excited about reading. Of course I want to help them all! But it was overwhelming and exhausting.

So I started thinking about how we can make it so that the help Iā€™m giving has the most impact.

The most obvious place to start was to teach even the youngest kids (1st graders) how to check out books themselves. Many of them have learned, and there are usually at least a few other kids who already know how that are happy to help. This frees me up a lot more to help with finding and choosing books.

We were having super long lines at checkout, and kids were getting back to lunch late, so I ended up dedicating two computers to checkout. In the early days, hardly anyone was using the catalog. Now weā€™re getting long lines at the catalog computer, so I may need to reconsider this set up. It is possible for me to have them set up for kids to do both, but that will require slightly more training.

Next, I realized that kids didnā€™t know how to use the catalog to find the physical location of the library, because the initial screen that pops up gives a call number but because our library is genrefied, the kids need to know both the call number and the location. So once I learned how to find that information in the catalog, I developed a brief lesson to share what I learned. That seems to be working well; kids are now able to find locate most things in the catalog on their own.

My goal is to make these sort of administrative tasks as independent of me as possible. Because the real joy in my job happens when a kid says, as one did this week, ā€œI really like books like Guts, Drama, Ghosts, and El Deafo. Do you know any others like that?ā€ Things are so busy at lunch recess I had to say, ā€œGive me a day to work on it.ā€ But the next day I had a big stack of other books for her to try. This is called readersā€™ advisory, and itā€™s one of my favorite parts of library work.

Another of my favorite parts is supporting instruction, which I did for the first time this week. Our younger students will be learning about North America this week including animals, people, and maps/land features. The teachers working on the animals lessons asked me to pull some resources together for them. So I spent a couple hours on that, getting a big stack of books together and building them a collection of ebooks on the ebook service we use, as well as recommending iNaturalist for photos of the animals out in the world.

I could only do that, though, because the teachers happened to catch me on a day when I didnā€™t have any students in for circulation.

The key thing to note is that I work 50% time. And the way that 50% is scheduled, about 2 of the 5 hours I work on a given day are dedicated to front-facing, direct student support. Another hour or two are dedicated to administrative tasks like getting books checked back in.

This only leaves an hour or two a day for the deep work of readersā€™ advisory, instructional support and collaboration, and collection management. (I havenā€™t even really gotten started with collection management yet; Iā€™ve been thinking about it, but not doing it.)

I do have high school TAs who can help with shelving and checking in, but when theyā€™re available and when I need to have books ready to go back out to kids or free up space (theyā€™re allowed a maximum of 10 books checked out at a time) arenā€™t always the same.

So. Iā€™m trying to create systems to help me make more time for the deep work.