Star Trek
- Prepped M’s lunch and school stuff.
- Took M to school.
- Took and posted Star Trek Day selfie.
- Made myself coffee and breakfast.
- Ate breakfast.
- Listened to part of the first episode of Gates McFadden Investigates. - really feels like sitting in on a conversation with my friends; apparently I have deep parasocial relationships with the TNG cast.
- Took a shower.
- Brushed, flossed, and rinsed my teeth.
- Trimmed my nails.
- Watched a little TNG.
- Made coffee.
- Had a snack.
- Managed my task list.
- Messed around on Twitter a lot.
- Gave W some feedback on his Fulbright essays.
- Loaded Brent Spiner’s upcoming book on my eReader.
- Read a lot of Lore Olympus.
- Worked on getting old masking tape off kitchen floor.
- Made lunch.
- Ate lunch.
- Picked M up from school.
- Made muffins with M.
- Watched a compilation of all Spot’s appearances on TNG 🐈.
- Played Dragon Quest III while M. watched Miraculous Tales of Ladybug and Cat Noir.
- Packed M’s snack and lunch for tomorrow.
- Prepped M’s lunch and school stuff.
- Made M’s breakfast.
- Made myself tea and breakfast.
- Ate breakfast.
- Took M to school.
- Wrote and published a blog post.
- Emailed D about podcast ideas.
- Fixed some links and added others to the Writing page of my website.
- Categorized some transactions in QuickBooks.
- Played around with a contract creation service.
- Reviewed tasks and set priorities.
- Poked around on Twitter and micro.blog.
- Covered hole in bathroom floor.
- Ate a snack.
- Read a little Lore Olympus.
- Watched a little TNG.
- Took a nap.
- Scrolled dark academia Instagram.
- Did some ankle strengthening exercises.
- Printed some paperwork for W.
- Ate lunch.
- Read more Lore Olympus.
- Picked M up from school.
- Played with M & his new weather toys.
- Did video call with L. so she could talk to M.
- Watched Disney ride through videos with M.
- Trimmed M’s nails.
Anybody else get a little Billy-Crystal-as-Miracle-Max vibe from Brent Spiner’s performance as very-old Dr. Noonian Soong? 🖖🏻📺
🖖🏻📺 Depression doesn't need a reason. (Star Trek Discovery 4x02 spoilers)
This post contains minor spoilers for Star Trek Discovery Season 4 Episode 2, “Anomaly."
Near the end of the latest episode of Discovery, Lt. Tilly tells Dr. Culbert that something feels off about herself, and that she’d like to talk to him about it in a professional context sometime.
This feels to me like a clear indication that Tilly is dealing with depression, anxiety, or both, and I’m very interested in following where this goes, especially as I read Tilly as my own sort of Discovery-avatar.
Over at Keith R. A. DeCandido’s recap for Tor.com, a commenter says,
The best thread for later is Tilly. Does she miss her mother? Is it about all the stress and loss and responsibility they’ve had? Mental health is an all too often ignored issue, so I hope they do it justice.
I, too, hope they do it justice, but what I don’t need is for there to be something Tilly’s depression is “about.” There certainly are things that can trigger depression, but the depression itself isn’t always a response to trauma. Sometimes it just happens because your body isn’t producing the chemicals it needs to.
I would love to see Tilly work through identifying how she’s feeling, struggling to decide between treatment options (or whether to go beyond talk therapy at all), and dealing with the consequences of whatever treatment she chooses. I’d also just love to see what mental health care looks like in the 32nd century.
But I don’t need there to be a reason she’s depressed.
Because depression doesn’t require a reason to appear.
I watched Star Trek Discovery 4x01 “Kobayashi Maru” last night and I have a lot of feelings. I’m happy to chat if you’d like to. Replies may contain spoilers. 🖖🏻📺
From now on whenever you meet a couple, you are required to ask: Which of you is the Stamets & which of you is the Culbert? (I’m the Stamets AND the Culbert. W. is the Emperor Georgiou.)🖖🏻#StarTrekDiscovery
I just finished the Season 3 finale of #StarTrekDiscovery and wow. What a beautiful close to a season. I’m heartbroken for all the people who won’t be able to watch the premiere of Season 4 tomorrow. 🖖🏻📺
“Peak Performance,” Impostor Syndrome, and PhD Life, brought to you by Star Trek: The Next Generation 📺🖖🏻
I’ve been in the middle of a Star Trek: The Next Generation rewatch for months, maybe even more than a year. Maybe since before the pandemic started, I don’t remember. I often will fall asleep to a TNG episode. I do this with the same episode over and over until I actually watch it all the way through while I’m awake.
Back in May, just over a month out from my dissertation defense and with no plan for the future, the episode I slept through over and over again was “Peak Performance.” It’s one of my favorite episodes, for many reasons, and one reason is a B story focusing on Data. (Surprise!)
The A story is that a strategist named Kolrami has come aboard the Enterprise to evaluate the crew’s performance in a combat exercise. Kolrami is a jerk and has real problems with Commander Riker, suggesting that Riker’s jovial attitude is not compatible with strong leadership.
Kolrami is also super arrogant. He comes from a species called the Zakdorn, well known for producing the galaxy’s best strategists. He prides himself on his strategy and uses it for games as well as combat exercises; he is a grandmaster of a game called Stratagema. Riker challenges Kolrami to a game of Stratagema and loses after only a few moves. Thinking that with his fancy positronic brain Data might actually be able to beat Kolrami, Dr. Pulaski eggs Data on to play and eventually misleads Kolrami into believing Data has challenged him. Data agrees to the challenge, in spite of not initiating it.
Kolrami and Data play Stratagema and it lasts longer than the game with Riker did, but Data still loses. Then this exchange happens:
Pulaski: How can you lose? You’re supposed to be infallible.
Data: Obviously, I am not.
It seems like a simple and innocuous response, but Data goes on to remove himself from bridge duty, believing that his loss at stratagema indicates a defect in himself:
I have proven to be vulnerable. At the present time, my deduction should be treated with skepticism.
I am concerned about giving the captain unsound advice.
This has indicated that I am damaged in some fashion. I must find the malfunction.
I heard the exchange above and these lines from Data and felt a deep resonance in my heart. Isn’t this how so many people feel, all the time? Isn’t this especially how scholars feel? Especially if you are an overachiever, you may make it all the way to a PhD program and only know what it is to excel in everything, and then meet a challenge that you can’t surmount.
You might be pursuing a tenure-track job, have done all the things you’re supposed to do, and still not get hired. Maybe you have tons of publications, brilliant teaching evaluations, a robust record of service, and did important dissertation research. And it doesn’t matter.
Data explains to Picard why he has removed himself from the bridge and what prompted him to do so. Picard replies:
…it is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness. That is life.
Um, excuse me Captain, just a moment, I got something in each eye and it has caused them to water profusely and also has made sobs wrack my body, hold on…
In the end, Data challenges Kolrami to a rematch. We see them play, Kolrami moving more quickly and becoming more agitated by the moment, as Data plays slowly and maintains a calm expression. Kolrami suspends the game, yells “This is not a rematch. You have made a mockery of me!” and storms out of the room.
As Data’s colleagues come to congratulate Data on his victory, he points out that he didn’t win, though no game of Strategema has ever gone to as high a score as this one has. Data explains that Kolrami was playing for a win and assumed that was Data’s goal as well, but Data had in fact chosen his own goal: a draw. He let many opportunities that would have supported a win pass him by in order to maintain a balance that would let him challenge Kolrami indefinitely.
Is this a perspective that can be useful for anyone dealing with impostor syndrome, and especially PhDs moving away from the tenure track? I think so. The “victory condition” for a PhD is assumed to be a tenure track job, but I went in with the intention of learning about qualitative methods. Now, I write about qualitative research and am pursuing other writing and consulting opportunities. It’s not success by the usual metric, but it’s a path with which I am happy. And it’s a path where no one tells me to wait for tenure before I have a kid (whoops did it during the PhD!), do public scholarship, or have opinions. And thank goodness, because that’s a long wait for a train don’t come.
I’m more than 16 minutes into S3E1 of Star Trek Discovery and I haven’t seen Saru, Tilly, Stamets, Culber, Detmer, Owo, or Reno yet, so what are we even doing here? Also I can never have just one fave on a Star Trek. I always love a lot of the crew. 🖖🏻📺
EDITED TO ADD: I take it all back. There is a cat on screen. All is forgiven.
I’m about to log off for the night but I want to talk about #StarTrekProdigy so tell me about your favorite bits and I’ll reply tomorrow! (Replies may contain spoilers.) 🖖🏻📺💻
Making a note to myself here to write a full blog post about Star Trek: The Next Generation 3x21, “Hollow Pursuits,” and the connection to the paper I’m currently revising about TRPGs & identity development. 🖖🏻
I’m watching the season 1 finale of Star Trek Discovery and having L’Rell do the previously in Klingon is a nice touch. 🖖🏻
I don’t like how clear it is that we are living in the mirror universe and the primary Star Trek universe is not ours. At least, this is what Discovery has led me to believe. 🖖🏻
Help I Read a Lower Decks Fanfic and Now I Resent All Other Activities: The Kimberly Hirsh Story 🖖🏻
Well mirror universe stuff is very upsetting. 🖖🏻
This thing where I need to sleep instead of staying up all night watching Star Trek: Discovery is really bumming me out. 🖖🏻
Don’t want to spoil the Lower Decks finale much but I was so distracted by my delight at encountering Captain Sonya Gomez I actually missed anything else in the first few minutes and had to rewind. Gomez is probably my favorite TNG character outside the main crew. 🖖🏻📺
My brand is: person who spends far too much time thinking about the absence of social science research ethics and the reflexive turn in Star Trek. 🖖🏻
Excuse me I will be over here flailing because I just learned there is a licensed Star Trek TNG/X-Men crossover novel. 🖖📚📺🗯️
UPDATED TO ADD: Literally the day after I learned about this book it went on $0.99 ebook sale. Reader, I bought it.
Now that I have Paramount+, my current viewing strategy is:
Want something familiar? TNG/DS9/VOY
Want something new? Discovery.
Want something funny? Lower Decks.
As mentioned long ago, I am All In On Trek. 🖖
Book Review: FAN FICTION by Brent Spiner 📚📺🖖
If you make a purchase through a link in this post, I may earn a commission.
Quick head’s up: In this review, I use “Brent” to refer to the character and “Spiner” to refer to the author.
Publisher’s Summary:
Brent Spiner’s explosive and hilarious novel is a personal look at the slightly askew relationship between a celebrity and his fans. If the Coen Brothers were to make a Star Trek movie, involving the complexity of fan obsession and sci-fi, this noir comedy might just be the one.
Set in 1991, just as Star Trek: The Next Generation has rocketed the cast to global fame, the young and impressionable actor Brent Spiner receives a mysterious package and a series of disturbing letters, that take him on a terrifying and bizarre journey that enlists Paramount Security, the LAPD, and even the FBI in putting a stop to the danger that has his life and career hanging in the balance.
Featuring a cast of characters from Patrick Stewart to Levar Burton to Trek creator Gene Roddenberry, to some completely imagined, this is the fictional autobiography that takes readers into the life of Brent Spiner, and tells an amazing tale about the trappings of celebrity and the fear he has carried with him his entire life.
Fan Fiction is a zany love letter to a world in which we all participate, the phenomenon of “Fandom.”
Let’s get the fanfiction discussion out of the way.
If you are into fanfiction, you probably know that, despite anything the OED may tell you, fans (or fen, as we’re sometimes pluralized) write it as all one word: fanfiction. Spiner’s book is titled Fan Fiction. But there’s a reason, I promise! In spite of Spiner not writing this the same way as fans do, I can fanwank the title! The novel itself, you see, is mostly Fiction, and it’s about not only Brent dealing with the attentions of a scary Fan, but the ways in which Brent is a Fan himself.
There is a point at which Brent tells Patrick Stewart that he feels as if he is a character in a work of fanfiction. At first, I thought, “Whoa, an actor aware of fanfiction in 1991?” but then I remembered that this is Star Trek, one of the first media fandoms and the first fanzine-based media fandom, and that the first issue of a newsletter devoted to Data and Spiner was released in the fall of 1987, well before this book takes place. That newsletter (adorable titled Data Entries) published its first piece of fiction in issue 3, which was published in spring of 1988, again well before this novel takes place. It’s worth noting that the first issue of the newsletter discusses establishing a fan club for Spiner and later issues report that Spiner requested that fans not do this and that the newsletter not include photos of him out of makeup. While the driving force in the novel is a fan who is creepy as can be, there were a lot of active fans of Spiner’s who were careful to respect his privacy. All of this to say, of course by 1991 Brent would be aware of fanfiction, though whether he would have actually read any for Star Trek or anything else is something I don’t know.
What I loved:
This book is a lot of fun. Brent Spiner makes it impossible to know what draws on real life and what’s totally made up, though there are interviews where he clarifies it a bit.
I can’t include exact quotes because I only have an Advanced Reader’s Copy and not a final version, but I can share some of my own notes with you. I think that will illuminate what I love about the book better than a summary can.
There’s a point at which Brent goes to see a detective at the LAPD. This detective offers a lot of assistance regarding Brent’s stalker, but of course he finishes their meeting by telling Brent he has a TNG spec script that involves Data traveling back in time to the 20th century to team up with a character who is clearly a self-insert for the detective. But really, who among us doesn’t have a TNG spec script that features Data collaborating with a self-insert character? When I was in middle school, my best friend and I plotted out the beats of an episode where Data teams up with a middle school-aged flautist to communicate with the Crystalline Entity through music. The middle school-aged flautist was a self-insert for my best friend; Data was guaranteed to be a Data Sue for me if we had actually finished the script.
Spiner portrays himself as a nebbishy, anxious wreck, which completely contradicts the image I have of him in my head as a confident, charismatic, and hilarious performer. It made me feel more aligned with the character Brent, which is nice because as someone who sees myself in Data, there was the risk I would find Brent to be so different from his character as to be not relatable. I too am an apparently confident and charismatic person who is actually an anxious wreck. (Can women be nebbishy? If we can, I am on the inside but not externally.) Because of this, I found Brent super relatable.
We get a glimpse into the glamor of a Hollywood life here when Brent puts in a CD in his car in 1991. How fancy is he? My family didn’t get a car with a CD player in it until probably 2000 or later. We bought one with a tape deck in 1993.
Spiner references his comedy influences in the book frequently; at first, I didn’t think of him as a comedic performer, in spite fo thinking of him as a funny person, but remembering that he was part of a panel on humor in Star Trek as part of First Contact Day 2021 reminded me that this is, in fact, a huge part of his work. Spiner’s comedy chops shine through in the book, when he has Brent drop jokes in a classic comedic structure. Again, I can’t tell you the exact quotes, but there are a lot of places where my annotations say things like “Fucking hilarious” and “Brent Spiner is a goddamn delight.”
Spiner confirms what I already knew (and used for my Data cosplay at my dissertation defense): Data is not white. He is gold. I liked that he confirmed this and mentioned it pretty frequently.
Spiner portrays Gene Roddenberry and Majel Barrett-Roddenberry as freaking adorable. I don’t know what they were really like, and I know that Majel wasn’t the alpha and omega of Gene’s attractions and romantic/sexual relationships, but DAMN, so cute.
Spiner’s portrayal of his TNG classmates is, according to his SyFy interview, exaggerated; it’s also delightful. Levar Burton is the most enlightened hippie in hippietown and Patrick Stewart is 100% So Very RSC.
What I wanted more of:
There is a lot going on in this book, in spite of it focusing strongly on one storyline: Brent dealing with the mysterious fan who is stalking him and seems to believe she is his daughter from the Star Trek: The Next Generation episode “The Offspring” (almost there in my rewatch!), Lal. I wish we’d gotten to spend a little bit more time with any of it. It’s a fast and fun read but it wouldn’t have been hurt by I having more time on set, more time dealing with the mystery, more time with Brent handling his complicated relationship with FBI Agent Cindy Lou and her twin, private security guard Candy Lou.
What I need to warn you about:
Spiner’s writing voice here is sparse. I think this is because Spiner is putting on a Chandleresque voice; reading the Google Books preview for The Big Sleep confirmed this for me. I rarely read hard-boiled detective fiction or noir; I’m more of a Victorian/cozy kind of gal. Because of this, the voice took me by surprise. If you’re used to that kind of writing, I think you’ll go, “Yep.” If not, know that it’s an intentional style.
While Spiner imitates the voice of a hard-boiled detective here and “mem-noir” is a delightful neologism to describe what he’s written, this has a more optimistic vibe than is typical of noir or hard-boiled detective stories. There’s a mystery, the book is set in LA, and Cindy Lou and Candy Lou could be credibly called dames, but that’s where the similarities end.
There are a couple of anachronisms that I wonder if they’ll be in the finished book. There’s a point at which Spiner uses the word “besties,” which seems to have first appeared in 1991. So it’s possible it would be used in the context of this story, but it would be very cutting edge. There’s also a character described in the epilogue as having been taking online classes for years, and I can’t tell if the epilogue is supposed to be from the perspective of Spiner-now, as the prologue clearly is, or Brent-then. So that might be an anachronism or it might not, I can’t tell.
Some people have criticized Spiner’s portrayal of women in the book, especially the twins Cindy Lou and Candy Lou, as being too limited and focused on them as sexual objecsts. It’s a fair critique, but it didn’t bother me.
Final word: Fans of Star Trek: The Next Generation should definitely check this out. Noir readers might enjoy it too; Spiner does a good job of explaining things about the show that non-fans might otherwise confusing.
Book: Fan Fiction
Author: Brent Spiner
Publisher: St. Martin’s Press
Publication Date: October 5, 2021
Pages: 256
Age Range: Adult
Source of Book: Digital ARC from NetGalley
If you read through today’s Done List, you’ll notice I put basic self-care tasks like showering and dental hygiene on it. This is because as a person with chronic illness, those count as tasks that use energy, energy I then won’t have to spend on something else.
Repping TNG Operations in my Lauren Christians Handmade dress for Star Trek Day. My kid told his teachers, “I’m being Spot because my mom is wearing her Data costume!” 🖖📺
My Done List for 9/7/21:
It’s easy for me to feel like a day went by where I didn’t do anything, so I’m making a list of what I did. Here’s today’s:
Part of me is always working on a taxonomy and ontology of #StarTrekTNG episodes. (Currently: only Data can safely go down to the planet. A girl or woman befriends him.) 🖖📺
🔖 I’ve started calling my kid Little One & after reading Meg Elison’s How Lwaxana Troi Became Our Space Aunt I couldn’t be happier to be aging into my natural camp grand dame-ness. 🖖🏻📺
You should probably look at Laz Marquez’s #StarTrekGala art project because it’s AWESOME. 🖖🏻🎨📺
